I'm just going to be up-front about it, I'm kind of radical and the stuff you're about to read may sound crazy or totally realistic. I once felt nervous that an employer Googled me. I have a lot of different aspects to my life and don't know what might pop up, but my last search on myself came up with a reasonable sample of my life. But I am not supposed to be listed on doctor.com as a physician. They must've bought a list of residents from my previous program or something. It says I practice in Sylmar!
Anyway, to my prospective employer, please take my application seriously. Although you may ask yourself why I am applying for your company at this time in the history of my life, I am sure that if you read about me and think I'm interesting and think I would be a good fit for your cause, I will be able to make a commitment.
Thanks for reading!
-S
Friday, November 21, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
My phone just went berserk... surprise!
I just posted craigslist ads about my consulting/writing services in Chicago (to be changed to WDC in January, if this keeps up).
One section of my blog belongs to the O in my pocket and because of my duty, I'll write some stuff for free about the state of the world, according to my records. Believe or do not believe, we have multiple levels of communication possible between humans and I have psychic dialogue with frickin' dozens of people, all day long, everyday. There is a "Not Ashamed" postcard from this cool church my sister and her family belong to. "Just speak the god shit," say some. I have Barack Obama on my phone because he believes in all kinds of stuff and the Christian God is one of them and like millions of people, the world over, he kinda thinks I'm a prophet or something. I don't get grandiose about this deal because a) sometimes it hella sucks, b) it's dangerous being on such a pedestal, c) I am only one of many, d) the deal in my being that allows me to take on this kind of spiritual responsibility is necessarily balanced by a lot of humility or I would be more vulnerable to succumbing to power - the deal breaker for any leader, humanistically speaking.
So, if Barack wants to hire me as an advisor, why can't he? He has lots of advisors to help him understand all the industries and sectors necessary to serve the people of the world and the US. He wants to be a good president and have the best advisors with the best abilities and connections and all that. Why risk losing information and not take advantage of my gifts in order to better understand the needs of people and how to get their needs met? Advisors have no decision-making ability, technically and so my threat to power would be on par with all the other advisors that surround the American President. WE KNOW there are old cronies, JFK-style in the loops that command the barriers that prevent the president-elect from hiring me, per our agreements that we discuss through this medium that people may or may not believe. Who wants to get caught not-believing, denying the consequences of our actions and fucking the planet up for humanity? Not Barack Obama. (this is kinda cool being so bold. -S) So, we'll be working on bridging the connection on the physical plane.
Work back-up plans. In case I remain unfree, in a modern version of Nelson Mandela-style or something, I will be looking for work via craigslist. If I'm not going to be advising the President, I don't want to live somewhere cold. I'm bitter about Northern California. I have another sister in San Diego and once saw a pretty sweet job with a pharmaceutical company down there as a clinical liaison. I would love to be hired for the sake of my morality in medicine and have the chance to influence that industry. Like with Washington, the insubordinance is understood, as is the chain of command, by which I mean that I know how these systems work and how not to rock boats, but if you turn away the motherfucking hermit, it's not my problem. For the younger generations and those not familiar with tarot symbols, The Hermit is like the old beggar woman in Beauty and the Beast whom the prince turns away.
At some point: Utah adventures.
One section of my blog belongs to the O in my pocket and because of my duty, I'll write some stuff for free about the state of the world, according to my records. Believe or do not believe, we have multiple levels of communication possible between humans and I have psychic dialogue with frickin' dozens of people, all day long, everyday. There is a "Not Ashamed" postcard from this cool church my sister and her family belong to. "Just speak the god shit," say some. I have Barack Obama on my phone because he believes in all kinds of stuff and the Christian God is one of them and like millions of people, the world over, he kinda thinks I'm a prophet or something. I don't get grandiose about this deal because a) sometimes it hella sucks, b) it's dangerous being on such a pedestal, c) I am only one of many, d) the deal in my being that allows me to take on this kind of spiritual responsibility is necessarily balanced by a lot of humility or I would be more vulnerable to succumbing to power - the deal breaker for any leader, humanistically speaking.
So, if Barack wants to hire me as an advisor, why can't he? He has lots of advisors to help him understand all the industries and sectors necessary to serve the people of the world and the US. He wants to be a good president and have the best advisors with the best abilities and connections and all that. Why risk losing information and not take advantage of my gifts in order to better understand the needs of people and how to get their needs met? Advisors have no decision-making ability, technically and so my threat to power would be on par with all the other advisors that surround the American President. WE KNOW there are old cronies, JFK-style in the loops that command the barriers that prevent the president-elect from hiring me, per our agreements that we discuss through this medium that people may or may not believe. Who wants to get caught not-believing, denying the consequences of our actions and fucking the planet up for humanity? Not Barack Obama. (this is kinda cool being so bold. -S) So, we'll be working on bridging the connection on the physical plane.
Work back-up plans. In case I remain unfree, in a modern version of Nelson Mandela-style or something, I will be looking for work via craigslist. If I'm not going to be advising the President, I don't want to live somewhere cold. I'm bitter about Northern California. I have another sister in San Diego and once saw a pretty sweet job with a pharmaceutical company down there as a clinical liaison. I would love to be hired for the sake of my morality in medicine and have the chance to influence that industry. Like with Washington, the insubordinance is understood, as is the chain of command, by which I mean that I know how these systems work and how not to rock boats, but if you turn away the motherfucking hermit, it's not my problem. For the younger generations and those not familiar with tarot symbols, The Hermit is like the old beggar woman in Beauty and the Beast whom the prince turns away.
At some point: Utah adventures.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Like Tom Tomorrow... if only I wrote a comic strip.
Work. Washington in January. Hopefully with some type of sign-on bonus as soon as possible. Hollywood is reportedly authorized for “258,” by the incoming administration. S will be introduced with transparency about world events, as we’ve experienced them. We will write the policies necessary to create peace as much as possible, within our representative checked and balanced system of government, and use these consciousness gifts and connections to the best of our ability to serve and represent people responsibly, as their leaders. Yeay!
Chicago now? Sure! Except that it’s so much cheaper to fly to Wisconsin.
Chicago now? Sure! Except that it’s so much cheaper to fly to Wisconsin.
Monday, November 3, 2008
Are we making history on Tuesday? Oh!
I am canvassing Las Vegas for Barack Obama and having a helluva time at it. I love engaging people in conversation in general and to what end this time? It’s crazy and fun and new all in one job. Discovered in Las Vegas indeed. I went undercover as a street performer until the political hoop was dangled before me again and I started working for a non-profit organization that mounted a big effort here in Nevada, notably a swing state.
It’s bizarre that I grew up in Nevada and when I recapitulated Reno in January, I went canvassing for the first time (for Ron Paul) and began my journey into politics. I prefer the JedI Temple to the Senate, but there is a theoretical democracy at play in the U.S. and the decision-makers do affect people’s lives, so I guess I gotta be involved. Humans! Duty.
I coined the catch-phrase that is the title of this piece while street-canvassing locals. Some people feel weird when asked for whom they voted, which is somewhat understandable. Very few people are answering their doors at this point, having been canvassed to tears (haha). But I have a knack for going up to strangers on the street and talking. I have actually identified a number of folks who needed (702)455-VOTE to get information and/or a ride to get to the polls on Tuesday. Did you know that Bush won Nevada in 2004 by only 12 votes per precinct (roughly a zip-code!)? Imagine how many factors-of-12 people couldn’t get a ride or were occupied with work and life in the short window of 7a-7p? It’s compelling. I think there would be some serious April 26, 1992 action if Barack loses the election at this point.
Some people know my history with this election, which slipped out as not authorized during rap-practice at work one day. I had the most interesting conversation on the bus this evening. I met a fellow Obama-canvasser working with a different group to Get Out The Vote here in Vegas. She told me about a website that has a script that is very convincing to the reader about how key their opinion is for the election and she used my name as an example. I play around with the veracity of that. I laugh to distract myself from what I’ve endured, which while tragic is flattering. My view on politics is jaded to the point of laughing in the face of madness. “I’ll vote when we have a democracy!” is a catch-phrase that I started in April of this year. But for now, we do have a choice between one party and another and one is much more cOmpatible with sustainaBility, so I’m Barack’ing the vote.
It’s bizarre that I grew up in Nevada and when I recapitulated Reno in January, I went canvassing for the first time (for Ron Paul) and began my journey into politics. I prefer the JedI Temple to the Senate, but there is a theoretical democracy at play in the U.S. and the decision-makers do affect people’s lives, so I guess I gotta be involved. Humans! Duty.
I coined the catch-phrase that is the title of this piece while street-canvassing locals. Some people feel weird when asked for whom they voted, which is somewhat understandable. Very few people are answering their doors at this point, having been canvassed to tears (haha). But I have a knack for going up to strangers on the street and talking. I have actually identified a number of folks who needed (702)455-VOTE to get information and/or a ride to get to the polls on Tuesday. Did you know that Bush won Nevada in 2004 by only 12 votes per precinct (roughly a zip-code!)? Imagine how many factors-of-12 people couldn’t get a ride or were occupied with work and life in the short window of 7a-7p? It’s compelling. I think there would be some serious April 26, 1992 action if Barack loses the election at this point.
Some people know my history with this election, which slipped out as not authorized during rap-practice at work one day. I had the most interesting conversation on the bus this evening. I met a fellow Obama-canvasser working with a different group to Get Out The Vote here in Vegas. She told me about a website that has a script that is very convincing to the reader about how key their opinion is for the election and she used my name as an example. I play around with the veracity of that. I laugh to distract myself from what I’ve endured, which while tragic is flattering. My view on politics is jaded to the point of laughing in the face of madness. “I’ll vote when we have a democracy!” is a catch-phrase that I started in April of this year. But for now, we do have a choice between one party and another and one is much more cOmpatible with sustainaBility, so I’m Barack’ing the vote.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Success!
I submitted the book proposal to 10 literary agents today. Yeay! I'm happy. It felt really slushy trying to get to the library this evening. oi.
The core of my Nobel synthesis... or something.
Follow up to vision.html. In my travels and explorations of human nature and energy currency, I’ve decided to commit my life to creating Sustainable Intentional Communalities, with equitable trade and lifestyle arrangements and work agreements that make sense on an energetic level. Each person works as hard as s/he feels they need with an understanding of the real cost of luxury and empathic understanding around working less and treating the essential less intense work that some call domesticity with more respect. Society needs to reframe around the raising of children.
I think that when a person chooses to bring another being into this world, considerations need to be made around having and giving enough resources, on all levels so that human being can function as well as possible. This means, according to Maslow’s Hierarchy of Psycho-social needs, parents who want their children to go into the world as adults with the ability to create great things in the world need to provide for the child’s food, shelter, safety (Emotional safety not to be underestimated), family love connections, social needs, love and education, with respect to the child’s age and stage of development. I lean Rudolf Steiner-ish in my views on human development, though not a radical Steinerist.
So a society needs to have caregivers for children above all. Some moms are more suited to caring for children full-time. Some families need to prioritize more carefully around procreation with their available energy resources. A lot has gone on in the modern world around attention problems. No one can deny that. Mental Illness, television, crime, violence desensitization, sociopathy, rampant addictions in all levels of society on a vast range of mind and body altering substances at astronomical doses with holy questionable outcomes. Adjusting our lives toward our intuitive goals as conscious people to creating a village that understands attention will be one of the top Google ways to save the world. [and this will be my essay, Larry and Sergey! October 20th, baby]
Domestic women need to be provided for, old fashioned, style. I’m sorry to burst the bubble on feminism. I am a feminist and didn’t love staying at home full-time all the time, but my infant daughter demanded it and I’m glad I listened. I left medicine for a number of reasons, not the least of which was a maternal need to be home with my children. I fought and fought through med school but my function as a mother both what it was for my children and what it did for my soul were so much more important that my career suffered. And without husband, what’s a mother to do?
I worked as a domestic provider to a number of other folks instead because, like a greeting card I received once, in the recapitulation 2007 album, “The ordinary arts we practice at every day at home have more importance to the soul than their simplicity might suggest.” I have learned remarkable lessons from living in people’s homes and really witnessing their lives. Nothing I could’ve learned in a 15-30 minute interview or even months of therapy once a week. So I feel really good about how this work has really strengthened me as a healer and educated me as a philosopher, though I receive little credit because of the small paycheck and coincidental geographic instability associated with my rugged version of self-education. (as soon as the money rolls in, sweeties, I’m gonna Clara Zachannasian all over your asses… with hundreds that smell like money. Hahahahaha!)
But most importantly (and this is my Nobel Prize shit here), I’ve drawn on my shamanism and esoteric work, my psychology training, my vocation and socioeconomic hobbies and realized that people function in society at the level to which they are psycho-socially developed. Maslow’s Pyramid parallels chakra development. When I was high-functioning, as a doctor, I was giving back to society at a level 4, with my emotional body. When my emotional body was killed in the custody struggle of my divorce, I didn’t have the soul strength to function as a doctor. I had to go down to functioning on lower levels to build myself up. Ironically, writing falls into level 5, creativity, the will, the throat chakra, the butterfly. And the insight stuff is level 6-7, so it makes sense in some ways that I work on a domestic level 2 while writing about the lightning storms I’m chasing.
This comes back to the Village and what jobs we need. People generally choose jobs on the level they already function. Each person chooses how much of what type of energy they take in and put out in life. Some people are kinesthetic and aesthetic and their dollar value tends to be higher than people who use their blood sweat and tears to build the structures and appliances we take for granted. Why is this and is it fair? I don’t know. In a small village, I don’t know what the capacity for entertainment is. There is still a capitalistic real world that deals with money outside my Village concept and so there would be some cross over, this is sorta the apocalypse list, where entertainment is mostly by hobby… who knows?
At the base level of function are food, shelter and safety (f/s/s). There would be farming and lots of people into moving their body in productive yet simple ways would get satisfaction from producing food. Builders create our safe structures and products. A safety protection force is needed at higher population numbers than I anticipate in my tribe, but in areas where resource-scarcity is greater than the human social skills, behavior can be violent, necessitating a system to deal with violence.
At the next anthropologic level (that I’ve just sorta divined as a hobby with some psych background), humans next form packs: families. People form relationships to help each other get f/s/s so their loved ones don’t die. In Maslow’s pyramid, we need family attachments and love to develop further. So we need people to raise children, because everyone values children. Part of raising children until they are self-sustaining is an education system, so we would have a variety of educators in subjects that devote their community effort toward educating the children, teens and adults.
In my caregiving work, chakra 2 is the level of care I’m working at, providing work around domestic duties, which are usually tied to relationships (Nanny as “Mother’s Helper”) and it would make sense that the person or family in need of my services would have trouble in this area. Dysfunctional family is such a commonplace term that it one needs to be really over the top to get on a television talk show, except that the stories are sounding more and more common everywhere I go. So the family unit is breaking down would be the diagnosis. So, creating my little vision tribe is how I propose to save the world. Fixing families will allow people to develop further along Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs. Creating small villages that focus their energy on sustainable practices with intention on the base needs, society as a whole will evolve.
The current focus in elite public education in the Bay Area in California has second graders in pre-pre-algebra. So, we’re trying to force a 7 year-old to function on high analytic levels in his being? Redirecting education towards what is reasonable and appropriate skill building for a child based on human development is much more practical. The child is ready to learn how to do things with her body, be it domestic, crafts based or athletics. The brain gets developed after the body, silly. And even still, in Waldorf education, after the physical body is developed, then one focuses education on the emotional body: humanities through story and art until the child reaches puberty and then the maturing person is ready to get academic and take on math and science with a solid foundation. So a village needs educators, which ranges from level 2 through 4, 5, 6, in higher society. The size of the village would determine our needs and then we outsource to an urban region for higher education.
Beyond that, a small village or any society needs vocationists: mechanics, tradespeople, handimen, seamstresses and other physical production efforts. These are level 2-3 in Maslows-Chakra terms. People who still primarily operate with their hands and don’t have to socialize to a large degree. Unfortunately, this is the area most devastated by the economic policies around overseas movement of factories and such. How many people function on this level who didn’t go to college? These jobs are still necessary to society and in the setting of the fuel situation and transportation of goods, this is a sensitive topic. Blue-collar job loss has probably been a significant factor in the other problems on the 2-3 levels of society: the family and community.
Healers. There is some debate (even if it is mostly my own) about the need for a “healer.” I have gone through a number of existential crises over my calling to be a doctor. I felt I needed to know how to do basic procedures like appendectomies and delivering babies in an apocalypse. I still haven’t learned those as well as I’d like. There is an issue about doing this service for money. There is clearly a value on doctoring and given the level of human development and energy service being requested, the reward should be equitable. I crumbled under the hypocrisy of the system providing care inequitably and losing a lot of energy to inefficiency and making choices based on propaganda around a billion-dollar industry. People undoubtedly need healing and services and doctors need to be paid and such but the need for a healer is different than the need for an M.D. So if the apocalypse hits and I say that I’ve delivered a few babies and know mostly what to do in a given situation, you can decide if you want my care or not.
The need for a society to have a system to deal with the (rampant) illness of the populace is an ethical one. Most developed societies have chosen to provide this level of service and support the training of physicians and nurses. Given that the US seems to be struggling on the more basic levels, this may explain the deficit. Is there not enough money to cover to this level? Is there not enough interest? When one looks at how most Americans eat and treat their bodies, some doctors get annoyed that patients ask for their advice at all. I certainly came down on my grandma about spending $50,000 of Medicare’s money in one hospital visit and not knowing what they had done as she continues to swallow soda, cereal and ice cream. Add to that the $10,000 worth of prescriptions she gobbles per year and it would seem there is the money but the decisions around who gets what are clearly in need of greater examination. So people want more service than they are willing to put up the energy for, that is where I found the crux of the matter.
Where the world, though mostly the US, has gone wrong in its decision-making over the last century is choosing to use energy on higher levels that one is really willing to create. We made huge strides in technology, agriculture, medicine, entertainment with the consequences of life being made so simple that we were convenienced into disability. We didn’t actually evolve to that level. Emotionally, most people are barely functioning on the second or third chakra level and are being asked to produce in the world off borrowed resources (time, sleep, fossil fuel, plastic containers, fast food). That is the core of sustainability versus what is not sustainable. It is not sustainable to want more than we create. It would be great if we could restructure our society so that we can develop further to create more in the world. People who get f/s/s, family nurturing, social support and soul-intimate love, they are able to genuinely create in the world and attain higher levels of spiritual development. Everyone else is borrowing.
I think that when a person chooses to bring another being into this world, considerations need to be made around having and giving enough resources, on all levels so that human being can function as well as possible. This means, according to Maslow’s Hierarchy of Psycho-social needs, parents who want their children to go into the world as adults with the ability to create great things in the world need to provide for the child’s food, shelter, safety (Emotional safety not to be underestimated), family love connections, social needs, love and education, with respect to the child’s age and stage of development. I lean Rudolf Steiner-ish in my views on human development, though not a radical Steinerist.
So a society needs to have caregivers for children above all. Some moms are more suited to caring for children full-time. Some families need to prioritize more carefully around procreation with their available energy resources. A lot has gone on in the modern world around attention problems. No one can deny that. Mental Illness, television, crime, violence desensitization, sociopathy, rampant addictions in all levels of society on a vast range of mind and body altering substances at astronomical doses with holy questionable outcomes. Adjusting our lives toward our intuitive goals as conscious people to creating a village that understands attention will be one of the top Google ways to save the world. [and this will be my essay, Larry and Sergey! October 20th, baby]
Domestic women need to be provided for, old fashioned, style. I’m sorry to burst the bubble on feminism. I am a feminist and didn’t love staying at home full-time all the time, but my infant daughter demanded it and I’m glad I listened. I left medicine for a number of reasons, not the least of which was a maternal need to be home with my children. I fought and fought through med school but my function as a mother both what it was for my children and what it did for my soul were so much more important that my career suffered. And without husband, what’s a mother to do?
I worked as a domestic provider to a number of other folks instead because, like a greeting card I received once, in the recapitulation 2007 album, “The ordinary arts we practice at every day at home have more importance to the soul than their simplicity might suggest.” I have learned remarkable lessons from living in people’s homes and really witnessing their lives. Nothing I could’ve learned in a 15-30 minute interview or even months of therapy once a week. So I feel really good about how this work has really strengthened me as a healer and educated me as a philosopher, though I receive little credit because of the small paycheck and coincidental geographic instability associated with my rugged version of self-education. (as soon as the money rolls in, sweeties, I’m gonna Clara Zachannasian all over your asses… with hundreds that smell like money. Hahahahaha!)
But most importantly (and this is my Nobel Prize shit here), I’ve drawn on my shamanism and esoteric work, my psychology training, my vocation and socioeconomic hobbies and realized that people function in society at the level to which they are psycho-socially developed. Maslow’s Pyramid parallels chakra development. When I was high-functioning, as a doctor, I was giving back to society at a level 4, with my emotional body. When my emotional body was killed in the custody struggle of my divorce, I didn’t have the soul strength to function as a doctor. I had to go down to functioning on lower levels to build myself up. Ironically, writing falls into level 5, creativity, the will, the throat chakra, the butterfly. And the insight stuff is level 6-7, so it makes sense in some ways that I work on a domestic level 2 while writing about the lightning storms I’m chasing.
This comes back to the Village and what jobs we need. People generally choose jobs on the level they already function. Each person chooses how much of what type of energy they take in and put out in life. Some people are kinesthetic and aesthetic and their dollar value tends to be higher than people who use their blood sweat and tears to build the structures and appliances we take for granted. Why is this and is it fair? I don’t know. In a small village, I don’t know what the capacity for entertainment is. There is still a capitalistic real world that deals with money outside my Village concept and so there would be some cross over, this is sorta the apocalypse list, where entertainment is mostly by hobby… who knows?
At the base level of function are food, shelter and safety (f/s/s). There would be farming and lots of people into moving their body in productive yet simple ways would get satisfaction from producing food. Builders create our safe structures and products. A safety protection force is needed at higher population numbers than I anticipate in my tribe, but in areas where resource-scarcity is greater than the human social skills, behavior can be violent, necessitating a system to deal with violence.
At the next anthropologic level (that I’ve just sorta divined as a hobby with some psych background), humans next form packs: families. People form relationships to help each other get f/s/s so their loved ones don’t die. In Maslow’s pyramid, we need family attachments and love to develop further. So we need people to raise children, because everyone values children. Part of raising children until they are self-sustaining is an education system, so we would have a variety of educators in subjects that devote their community effort toward educating the children, teens and adults.
In my caregiving work, chakra 2 is the level of care I’m working at, providing work around domestic duties, which are usually tied to relationships (Nanny as “Mother’s Helper”) and it would make sense that the person or family in need of my services would have trouble in this area. Dysfunctional family is such a commonplace term that it one needs to be really over the top to get on a television talk show, except that the stories are sounding more and more common everywhere I go. So the family unit is breaking down would be the diagnosis. So, creating my little vision tribe is how I propose to save the world. Fixing families will allow people to develop further along Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs. Creating small villages that focus their energy on sustainable practices with intention on the base needs, society as a whole will evolve.
The current focus in elite public education in the Bay Area in California has second graders in pre-pre-algebra. So, we’re trying to force a 7 year-old to function on high analytic levels in his being? Redirecting education towards what is reasonable and appropriate skill building for a child based on human development is much more practical. The child is ready to learn how to do things with her body, be it domestic, crafts based or athletics. The brain gets developed after the body, silly. And even still, in Waldorf education, after the physical body is developed, then one focuses education on the emotional body: humanities through story and art until the child reaches puberty and then the maturing person is ready to get academic and take on math and science with a solid foundation. So a village needs educators, which ranges from level 2 through 4, 5, 6, in higher society. The size of the village would determine our needs and then we outsource to an urban region for higher education.
Beyond that, a small village or any society needs vocationists: mechanics, tradespeople, handimen, seamstresses and other physical production efforts. These are level 2-3 in Maslows-Chakra terms. People who still primarily operate with their hands and don’t have to socialize to a large degree. Unfortunately, this is the area most devastated by the economic policies around overseas movement of factories and such. How many people function on this level who didn’t go to college? These jobs are still necessary to society and in the setting of the fuel situation and transportation of goods, this is a sensitive topic. Blue-collar job loss has probably been a significant factor in the other problems on the 2-3 levels of society: the family and community.
Healers. There is some debate (even if it is mostly my own) about the need for a “healer.” I have gone through a number of existential crises over my calling to be a doctor. I felt I needed to know how to do basic procedures like appendectomies and delivering babies in an apocalypse. I still haven’t learned those as well as I’d like. There is an issue about doing this service for money. There is clearly a value on doctoring and given the level of human development and energy service being requested, the reward should be equitable. I crumbled under the hypocrisy of the system providing care inequitably and losing a lot of energy to inefficiency and making choices based on propaganda around a billion-dollar industry. People undoubtedly need healing and services and doctors need to be paid and such but the need for a healer is different than the need for an M.D. So if the apocalypse hits and I say that I’ve delivered a few babies and know mostly what to do in a given situation, you can decide if you want my care or not.
The need for a society to have a system to deal with the (rampant) illness of the populace is an ethical one. Most developed societies have chosen to provide this level of service and support the training of physicians and nurses. Given that the US seems to be struggling on the more basic levels, this may explain the deficit. Is there not enough money to cover to this level? Is there not enough interest? When one looks at how most Americans eat and treat their bodies, some doctors get annoyed that patients ask for their advice at all. I certainly came down on my grandma about spending $50,000 of Medicare’s money in one hospital visit and not knowing what they had done as she continues to swallow soda, cereal and ice cream. Add to that the $10,000 worth of prescriptions she gobbles per year and it would seem there is the money but the decisions around who gets what are clearly in need of greater examination. So people want more service than they are willing to put up the energy for, that is where I found the crux of the matter.
Where the world, though mostly the US, has gone wrong in its decision-making over the last century is choosing to use energy on higher levels that one is really willing to create. We made huge strides in technology, agriculture, medicine, entertainment with the consequences of life being made so simple that we were convenienced into disability. We didn’t actually evolve to that level. Emotionally, most people are barely functioning on the second or third chakra level and are being asked to produce in the world off borrowed resources (time, sleep, fossil fuel, plastic containers, fast food). That is the core of sustainability versus what is not sustainable. It is not sustainable to want more than we create. It would be great if we could restructure our society so that we can develop further to create more in the world. People who get f/s/s, family nurturing, social support and soul-intimate love, they are able to genuinely create in the world and attain higher levels of spiritual development. Everyone else is borrowing.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Update
I tend not to report on this public blog because I feel safer knowing, albeit vaguely, who my readers are, via the loose security of myspace. At least it's something. On the other hand, being a fearless revolutionary, I know that I need to accept that I have some publicity and should use it to my advantage. I seemingly have different identities all over, I guess. I hear. Some people check here to find out what I'm doing but http://myspace.com/drummess is the most current. I also recently created a facebook account, but it has no data. I'm happy to be "friends" on myspace with anyone who doesn't try to hurt me.
"Hurt me" might be a confusing concept. Emotionally, I guess I've become more sensitive over the past couple years and have elected to cut off some friendships because of emotional pain, which may seem subtle or jumbled around what has gone on astrally. Hurt me also refers to getting me locked up. I am not in honest communication with my mother, known to be psychologically very unstable. If people get data from her, it is from who knows what source-not me. I find it weird that people communicate around me and with various people who may or may not have a clue as to what is going on. I prefer directness.
So, for the update: I'm camping out in a random public space, as a homeless person, waiting for the US Government to release the psychological operations effort that has kept me down since January. I do not accept any psychiatric diagnosis that I've heard so far because a) I know my feelings and my thought process and thought content and why and how it is reasonable. b) I believe that psychiatry is a field that is predominantly dictated by pharmaceutical companies with suspicious connections to agencies with an interest in mind-control on the population level. c) life circumstances amidst a revolution should not be the basis for a diagnosis. d) I haven't even had a reasonable psychiatric evaluation. Those 11 days at Fremont hospital were a joke and that M.D. may as well have been an actor.
I wish not to be homeless but have found difficulty in maintaining a residence and/or job for various reasons. I think that most people who would be reading about me know me because of what goes on in the subliminal circuits of the collective consciousness. If you don't, I'm sorry. None of this would make sense if you aren't connected. I don't anticipate returning to medicine this coming year. I think I have a lot of career/income options that don't conflict with my values so much. And it is emotionally intense to serve people as a physician at the level of integrity that I expect of myself. I don't expect that I want to give out that kind of energy for what I'll be getting in return. Someday, I hope to learn procedures and deliver basic health care so that my loved ones can be safe.
For now, I'm working on writing, advocacy, philosophy and humanistic healing. Still awaiting payment for services rendered. Accepting new clients anytime.
Peace and Love!
-S
"Hurt me" might be a confusing concept. Emotionally, I guess I've become more sensitive over the past couple years and have elected to cut off some friendships because of emotional pain, which may seem subtle or jumbled around what has gone on astrally. Hurt me also refers to getting me locked up. I am not in honest communication with my mother, known to be psychologically very unstable. If people get data from her, it is from who knows what source-not me. I find it weird that people communicate around me and with various people who may or may not have a clue as to what is going on. I prefer directness.
So, for the update: I'm camping out in a random public space, as a homeless person, waiting for the US Government to release the psychological operations effort that has kept me down since January. I do not accept any psychiatric diagnosis that I've heard so far because a) I know my feelings and my thought process and thought content and why and how it is reasonable. b) I believe that psychiatry is a field that is predominantly dictated by pharmaceutical companies with suspicious connections to agencies with an interest in mind-control on the population level. c) life circumstances amidst a revolution should not be the basis for a diagnosis. d) I haven't even had a reasonable psychiatric evaluation. Those 11 days at Fremont hospital were a joke and that M.D. may as well have been an actor.
I wish not to be homeless but have found difficulty in maintaining a residence and/or job for various reasons. I think that most people who would be reading about me know me because of what goes on in the subliminal circuits of the collective consciousness. If you don't, I'm sorry. None of this would make sense if you aren't connected. I don't anticipate returning to medicine this coming year. I think I have a lot of career/income options that don't conflict with my values so much. And it is emotionally intense to serve people as a physician at the level of integrity that I expect of myself. I don't expect that I want to give out that kind of energy for what I'll be getting in return. Someday, I hope to learn procedures and deliver basic health care so that my loved ones can be safe.
For now, I'm working on writing, advocacy, philosophy and humanistic healing. Still awaiting payment for services rendered. Accepting new clients anytime.
Peace and Love!
-S
Friday, August 29, 2008
Public Update =]
Preface: This blog is copywrited in the name of multidimensional beings everywhere.
A couple months ago, I pasted a Tom Tomorrow comic into a journal-collage about his "imaginary conversations" with Senator Obama. You too, eh? I started getting psychically consulted or what ever you would call it (imaginal plane, astral plane?) by a number of politicians in January just as the Ron Paul Revolution was launching and Hillary and Obama were fully geared up but still having an equal chance at the nomination. My opinion at the time was that misogyny was a bigger problem in America than racism and the soreness over the Clinton History would be more harmful than the benefit of kitchen table recognition. No one asked me what our people needed, they just asked me how they would VOTE.
Since then, I have been frequently asked about various political, business and governmental matters over the psychic airwaves but because I'm too controversial in real life to get a phone call that documents my presence and value, I get no such call and they don't pay me. Ethics of the astral plane. Are other consultants getting unwarranted phone calls that they would answer out of the kindness of their heart as a curb-side, and not charge for it, but that's because they have academic base salaries. There are also good ethical questions around someone else being able to co-create statements. If I have a level of authority and I am asked a question, how much control do I have over what comes out of my mind/mouth? Does that affect the validity?
My next project is up in the air. I have decided against getting involved in our current government, although I did almost call a recruiter to get tested. Scary biscuits, eh? I've decided that I'm going to maintain a level of interest in the political revolution afoot, as it obviously affects my life. I'm going to plan for the apocalypse, as there are myriad sources worldwide that suggest we're in one. I don't care if I sound schizophrenic because I have higher world ideas about what "mental illness" really means. So, I'm working on my survival skills in rural california at the moment while I am looking for a job and polishing my book proposal. It's curious how the collective consciousness plays into human resources decisions around privacy and professionalism. It reminds me of a comic I read once about hiring an ass to test out an ass-kicker.
A couple months ago, I pasted a Tom Tomorrow comic into a journal-collage about his "imaginary conversations" with Senator Obama. You too, eh? I started getting psychically consulted or what ever you would call it (imaginal plane, astral plane?) by a number of politicians in January just as the Ron Paul Revolution was launching and Hillary and Obama were fully geared up but still having an equal chance at the nomination. My opinion at the time was that misogyny was a bigger problem in America than racism and the soreness over the Clinton History would be more harmful than the benefit of kitchen table recognition. No one asked me what our people needed, they just asked me how they would VOTE.
Since then, I have been frequently asked about various political, business and governmental matters over the psychic airwaves but because I'm too controversial in real life to get a phone call that documents my presence and value, I get no such call and they don't pay me. Ethics of the astral plane. Are other consultants getting unwarranted phone calls that they would answer out of the kindness of their heart as a curb-side, and not charge for it, but that's because they have academic base salaries. There are also good ethical questions around someone else being able to co-create statements. If I have a level of authority and I am asked a question, how much control do I have over what comes out of my mind/mouth? Does that affect the validity?
My next project is up in the air. I have decided against getting involved in our current government, although I did almost call a recruiter to get tested. Scary biscuits, eh? I've decided that I'm going to maintain a level of interest in the political revolution afoot, as it obviously affects my life. I'm going to plan for the apocalypse, as there are myriad sources worldwide that suggest we're in one. I don't care if I sound schizophrenic because I have higher world ideas about what "mental illness" really means. So, I'm working on my survival skills in rural california at the moment while I am looking for a job and polishing my book proposal. It's curious how the collective consciousness plays into human resources decisions around privacy and professionalism. It reminds me of a comic I read once about hiring an ass to test out an ass-kicker.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
7/17 daily stream of consciousness
Life without Consequences
I summarized the problem with humans. They have learned to live without the consequences of their actions. For the new-consciousness children, the reason they quite logically say, “I don't want to do that because I don't have to,” is because it's true. They see through the veils of human emotional manipulation around should and since all their needs are met without doing anything for it, they have no sense of what it takes to actually create the things they take for granted. This describes most people under 30 these days because there has been a thinning of the veil increasingly since the 70's. The problem is that there is a real human value on all of the things that we consume from food to plastic toys and fossil-driven recreation.
As many people know, I've been working on the problem of how to create enough in my life to sustain myself and others in my charge. I had an illusory financial system subsidizing my adult existence through college and med school, leaving me with a skewed perception of dollars and being of service to society. I was very well educated but didn't take the bait of guaranteed employment as a licensed physician. I had to learn what skills of mine would be worth paying for and I think I have finally figured it out.
Right now, my life is focused on work, love and money (chakras 3-5). In that order, sorta. My angel personal assistants, who filter my calls, prioritize these for me. Some work I do simply because it is the right thing to do, even though I don't get paid for it. If I have some political consulting to do to keep Theos'/God's people alive, I take the call. Because I'm not racially biased whatsoever, I'm sometimes seen as anti-patriotic but the truth is that I am always trying to unify people. So when Iranians tell me they'll help fund my film, “258,” that will bring Peace in the Middle East closer to reality, I say, “hell, yes!” Why is it the Arabs who seem to recognize my contributions the most? Possibly because they get bombed more than anyone else and thought that 258 was a really good idea. Other people don't feel the consequences of our world war as much.
We are in a world war. There are American troops and intelligence agents in at least 37 countries in the world. Do you think that people appreciate it when they hear a 31 year-old doctor psychically mediate world peace with the approval of the elected American president and then hear that various corporate interests and government bodies depend on the industry of killing people. The food crisis in the world is the result of (mostly) American bombs destroying the food production possibility in the soils of the world for 5 years/bomb. Where have we bombed? The Middle East, Afghanistan, Bosnia, China, all around Asia.
Using people as iPhones. I don't know where the line should be drawn on the body jumping, "Being John Malkovich" phenomenon, what have you. If you don't know what that means, I'm sorry. You're probably better off. Last summer, I learned that because humans are connected through various consciousness circuits, people can use them to talk to other people. I feel like I'm talking to people in suits a la A Scanner Darkly. I think that the level to which people will astral-project, which is another name for it, is questionable. Should there be permission? Talk but don't touch,” might be a good start.
The reason I don't have very many people in my personal life is because they get used as psychic telephones by people, known and unknown; the consequences of me being famous. I love my daughters but when I see that they are functional pawn-omatics for people who need to talk to me or want to lick my face, I don't like putting them through that. My younger daughter gets really confused when a zillion people vy for her eyes and ears and words, so I don't spend a lot of time with her but I still try to call her every night just to tell her I love her. It sucks. It means that I can't really be the mom I want to be until everything else settles down. Who knows when that will be? Why don't I just not let people do it? It's complicated. Sometimes they're pretty important calls (world political consulting) and obviously partnering is less important, but not insignificant. Emotionally it is not easy for me to control. Certainly many would agree that the calls about money need to be taken.
My career: I am officially a writer. I write screenplays mostly because that industry offers the highest $/word and I can bust out condensed nuggets of film-marketable words so fast. Some days I've been getting in 3000 words in 6 hours worth of work. I also have 50,000 word rough draft of a book for print about the last year. It would seem that I found the magic key: writing is I was clearly clearly destined for? My website is almost completely updated and should be by the time you are reading this blog. Writing so much does wipe me out emotionally at times. It takes strength to dapple in divine wisdom (theosophy). As for getting paid as a writer, it should be any day or even any minute. It's kind of astounding to think of going from rags to riches, but I think I can hack it.
I love watching my chakra-development-work-wage theory in action all the time now. It certainly helps me to realize what my time is worth. When I was growing food, my time was worth $4/hr; as a nanny, $5-10/hr; as an autistic caregiver, it was worth $17; as a doctor-in-training, it was around $20. Now that I realize that I can contribute to the world on the 6th -8th chakra level, I realize what I should be charging. It's nice. I also realize why I can't be a doctor or other 4th -level occupation right now. I've been short-circuiting through my 3rd and 4th levels to focus my development of the 5th through 8th. It's important, even if a lot of people don't understand. Perhaps, the below may help illustrate why I have struggled with this world so much this year.
To summarize that theory, Steiner speaks about spiritual organs that he calls lotus flowers that are at various levels of activation, along the lines of the chakra systems in Eastern symbolic systems. I have been using psychosocial analyses, my spiritual reading and my own clairvoyant development to understand these concepts. Now I find it really interesting walking around, noticing what someone's occupation is and assessing their level of development. It's weird being me.
Chakra 1; base of spine (sacrum); color: red; maslow's level (ML) 1: food/shelter/safety; economic vocations (EV): sex workers, slaves.
C-2; gonads; color: orange; ML 2: family love relationships, reproduction; EV: homemakers, housekeepers, nannys, introverted skilled trades mechanics, smithery.
C-3; umbilicus/belly, yellow, m.l 3: community, social relationships; EV: services, especially food service, bureaucracy, basic office work.
C-4; heart (seat of the soul); green; ML 4: intimate love; EV: emotionally intense service: healthcare, education, management.
C-5; throat/thyroid (seat of the will); blue; ML 5: creativity; EV: entrepreneurs, higher education, higher healthcare.
C-6: third eye/pituitary gland; indigo; ML 6: intuition, self-actualization; EV: CEOs, Movie Makers, Artists.
C-7: crown of the head; pineal gland (seat of the soul); purple; connection with the divine. High priests and such.
C-8: multidimensionality; Rose Pink.
I summarized the problem with humans. They have learned to live without the consequences of their actions. For the new-consciousness children, the reason they quite logically say, “I don't want to do that because I don't have to,” is because it's true. They see through the veils of human emotional manipulation around should and since all their needs are met without doing anything for it, they have no sense of what it takes to actually create the things they take for granted. This describes most people under 30 these days because there has been a thinning of the veil increasingly since the 70's. The problem is that there is a real human value on all of the things that we consume from food to plastic toys and fossil-driven recreation.
As many people know, I've been working on the problem of how to create enough in my life to sustain myself and others in my charge. I had an illusory financial system subsidizing my adult existence through college and med school, leaving me with a skewed perception of dollars and being of service to society. I was very well educated but didn't take the bait of guaranteed employment as a licensed physician. I had to learn what skills of mine would be worth paying for and I think I have finally figured it out.
Right now, my life is focused on work, love and money (chakras 3-5). In that order, sorta. My angel personal assistants, who filter my calls, prioritize these for me. Some work I do simply because it is the right thing to do, even though I don't get paid for it. If I have some political consulting to do to keep Theos'/God's people alive, I take the call. Because I'm not racially biased whatsoever, I'm sometimes seen as anti-patriotic but the truth is that I am always trying to unify people. So when Iranians tell me they'll help fund my film, “258,” that will bring Peace in the Middle East closer to reality, I say, “hell, yes!” Why is it the Arabs who seem to recognize my contributions the most? Possibly because they get bombed more than anyone else and thought that 258 was a really good idea. Other people don't feel the consequences of our world war as much.
We are in a world war. There are American troops and intelligence agents in at least 37 countries in the world. Do you think that people appreciate it when they hear a 31 year-old doctor psychically mediate world peace with the approval of the elected American president and then hear that various corporate interests and government bodies depend on the industry of killing people. The food crisis in the world is the result of (mostly) American bombs destroying the food production possibility in the soils of the world for 5 years/bomb. Where have we bombed? The Middle East, Afghanistan, Bosnia, China, all around Asia.
Using people as iPhones. I don't know where the line should be drawn on the body jumping, "Being John Malkovich" phenomenon, what have you. If you don't know what that means, I'm sorry. You're probably better off. Last summer, I learned that because humans are connected through various consciousness circuits, people can use them to talk to other people. I feel like I'm talking to people in suits a la A Scanner Darkly. I think that the level to which people will astral-project, which is another name for it, is questionable. Should there be permission? Talk but don't touch,” might be a good start.
The reason I don't have very many people in my personal life is because they get used as psychic telephones by people, known and unknown; the consequences of me being famous. I love my daughters but when I see that they are functional pawn-omatics for people who need to talk to me or want to lick my face, I don't like putting them through that. My younger daughter gets really confused when a zillion people vy for her eyes and ears and words, so I don't spend a lot of time with her but I still try to call her every night just to tell her I love her. It sucks. It means that I can't really be the mom I want to be until everything else settles down. Who knows when that will be? Why don't I just not let people do it? It's complicated. Sometimes they're pretty important calls (world political consulting) and obviously partnering is less important, but not insignificant. Emotionally it is not easy for me to control. Certainly many would agree that the calls about money need to be taken.
My career: I am officially a writer. I write screenplays mostly because that industry offers the highest $/word and I can bust out condensed nuggets of film-marketable words so fast. Some days I've been getting in 3000 words in 6 hours worth of work. I also have 50,000 word rough draft of a book for print about the last year. It would seem that I found the magic key: writing is I was clearly clearly destined for? My website is almost completely updated and should be by the time you are reading this blog. Writing so much does wipe me out emotionally at times. It takes strength to dapple in divine wisdom (theosophy). As for getting paid as a writer, it should be any day or even any minute. It's kind of astounding to think of going from rags to riches, but I think I can hack it.
I love watching my chakra-development-work-wage theory in action all the time now. It certainly helps me to realize what my time is worth. When I was growing food, my time was worth $4/hr; as a nanny, $5-10/hr; as an autistic caregiver, it was worth $17; as a doctor-in-training, it was around $20. Now that I realize that I can contribute to the world on the 6th -8th chakra level, I realize what I should be charging. It's nice. I also realize why I can't be a doctor or other 4th -level occupation right now. I've been short-circuiting through my 3rd and 4th levels to focus my development of the 5th through 8th. It's important, even if a lot of people don't understand. Perhaps, the below may help illustrate why I have struggled with this world so much this year.
To summarize that theory, Steiner speaks about spiritual organs that he calls lotus flowers that are at various levels of activation, along the lines of the chakra systems in Eastern symbolic systems. I have been using psychosocial analyses, my spiritual reading and my own clairvoyant development to understand these concepts. Now I find it really interesting walking around, noticing what someone's occupation is and assessing their level of development. It's weird being me.
Chakra 1; base of spine (sacrum); color: red; maslow's level (ML) 1: food/shelter/safety; economic vocations (EV): sex workers, slaves.
C-2; gonads; color: orange; ML 2: family love relationships, reproduction; EV: homemakers, housekeepers, nannys, introverted skilled trades mechanics, smithery.
C-3; umbilicus/belly, yellow, m.l 3: community, social relationships; EV: services, especially food service, bureaucracy, basic office work.
C-4; heart (seat of the soul); green; ML 4: intimate love; EV: emotionally intense service: healthcare, education, management.
C-5; throat/thyroid (seat of the will); blue; ML 5: creativity; EV: entrepreneurs, higher education, higher healthcare.
C-6: third eye/pituitary gland; indigo; ML 6: intuition, self-actualization; EV: CEOs, Movie Makers, Artists.
C-7: crown of the head; pineal gland (seat of the soul); purple; connection with the divine. High priests and such.
C-8: multidimensionality; Rose Pink.
Thursday, June 5, 2008
few and far between
Apologies to those who check in with this page and often find nothing new. I still use myspace for blogging because I haven't fully embraced public exhibition and like little theoretical boundaries in who knows what about my life. I need to get more marketing out there so I'm trying to just spread knowledge about who I am at this point, rallying various career possibilities and so on.
Currently working as a live-in nanny in sacramento, ca. Legally an agreement for a trial nanny period. Then planning on LA. As close to Venice Beach as possible. $121 baby.
Be my myspace friend and subscribe if you wanna really keep up on me. I know it's less professional, but hey... it's what's up for now.
love,
-S
Currently working as a live-in nanny in sacramento, ca. Legally an agreement for a trial nanny period. Then planning on LA. As close to Venice Beach as possible. $121 baby.
Be my myspace friend and subscribe if you wanna really keep up on me. I know it's less professional, but hey... it's what's up for now.
love,
-S
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Economics
A larger synthesis I've been working on has been about the economy of each of the places though which I have traveled. What is an exchange of equitable value? What is everyone doing about the petroleum situation. It seems like everywhere is hanging on the brink of collapse from rising fuel costs.
And everyone knows everything in the news. Certainly much better than I do. Why does it seem like I'm the only one in my circle of friends really acting on what I know to be true. I don't want to be harsh or anything. But seriously? What is the value of what each person is doing for society? If society massively restructured, as could happen at any time from any number of causes (natural, political or otherwise), what would we all do? Who would have the resources to keep themselves alive? This may sound a little paranoid and there have been people preaching Armageddon for a while too. Maybe that's how I sound. I don't know.
I've just been trying to work towards the education I need to provide the necessary services to people that I've been training my brain for, all these years. Now I've been training my soul. Why is that crazy? Because I haven't made as much money, always seems to be the answer.
And everyone knows everything in the news. Certainly much better than I do. Why does it seem like I'm the only one in my circle of friends really acting on what I know to be true. I don't want to be harsh or anything. But seriously? What is the value of what each person is doing for society? If society massively restructured, as could happen at any time from any number of causes (natural, political or otherwise), what would we all do? Who would have the resources to keep themselves alive? This may sound a little paranoid and there have been people preaching Armageddon for a while too. Maybe that's how I sound. I don't know.
I've just been trying to work towards the education I need to provide the necessary services to people that I've been training my brain for, all these years. Now I've been training my soul. Why is that crazy? Because I haven't made as much money, always seems to be the answer.
Eugene, day one
I don't quite understand why I am perceived so negatively by some. I feel pretty well-reasoned and I don't really feel like I'm asking for so much and yet I am taking a beating in some ways. My stepsister left a pretty intense comment on a recent blog of mine. I understand that what I'm doing is a pretty intense project and kinda dangerous. I'd like it if my family could be more supportive. It seems as though I fell from some wholly unrealistic pedestal and that just shall not be tolerated. I feel like no one has really talked to me very much enough to treat me so negatively. It seems like whenever I do have a good conversation with people about the mission/project/philosophical experiment that I'm undertaking, I am usually met with positive regard. It sucks that I have so much drama to work through, but that is my task at hand. Why does some personal growth work seem so intuitive to me that when I take it on, plain as day, in my eyes with a cost:benefit ratio so reasonable. One year of not making much money and allowing a father to provide solely for a change, in order to gain a lifetime of experience and personal development that will eventually translate into money and/or a really sustainable future? What's this stability thing people freak out on? I'm sorry to air some laundry publicly, but it's gotta be done some times. I'm sorry some people get embarrassed by the things I write. I try to be reasonable with what's public and what's friend only and such, but I also have to work on my PR and I'm getting there. I promise. Maybe I'm just getting there in an odd way that no one ever expected. So little time has passed and so relatively few dollars have I borrowed for this experience. To everyone who needs their money, I shall pay it eventually. Or give your asses a place to live-work after the apocalypse hits and I'm the fucking mother goose who sowed the wheat/corn/vegetables, what have you. And who's gonna be looking for bread in the autumn? I've always provided and will again soon. In families, I thought people got each other's back unconditionally and shit. I so resent that people have bragged about me and sometimes it feels like they needed my medical license more than I do. =/
Anyway. the truth is, I'm not ready for Hollywood yet. I have been being tested for my outgoingness and only sliding by. I shall build myself up in Eugene for a bit. It seems like I'm just short of everything. I am 8 months away from a medical license (the legal right to diagnose and prescribe). I am few months to few years away from any number of other trainings that could put me in another profession. But yo. I've been in school forever. Why did that last 8 months have to be so painstaken?
I think I should be able to talk about what's gone on in my soul for the past 2 years and why that has served me more than a well-paying job. So few people have been willing to go there with me and yet: what is the soul worth to you? Do people value it so little as to turn away the hermit every time? Or do some people massively covet the hermit, knowing that I'm going to turn straw into gold or some other divine currency any day. I wish I could make people understand my perspective better.
Anyway. the truth is, I'm not ready for Hollywood yet. I have been being tested for my outgoingness and only sliding by. I shall build myself up in Eugene for a bit. It seems like I'm just short of everything. I am 8 months away from a medical license (the legal right to diagnose and prescribe). I am few months to few years away from any number of other trainings that could put me in another profession. But yo. I've been in school forever. Why did that last 8 months have to be so painstaken?
I think I should be able to talk about what's gone on in my soul for the past 2 years and why that has served me more than a well-paying job. So few people have been willing to go there with me and yet: what is the soul worth to you? Do people value it so little as to turn away the hermit every time? Or do some people massively covet the hermit, knowing that I'm going to turn straw into gold or some other divine currency any day. I wish I could make people understand my perspective better.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Holistic Healing Internship
This blog is peculiar in that I've started it a couple times but without a lot of confidence or extraneous supports. Originally, I started it to promote a mission of mine: http://scaadium.com/hhi, which has been unexpected in its manifestations, but survivable.
I had an odd derailment from my healing arts mission to try my soul at political consulting in the astral world on the last upstart. Didn't work out exactly as one might hope. And the most previous entry was just a shot-gun attempt at telling the world what I might like to do in an ideal resource-earning way.
Now I am on the road. I am couchsurfing in Arcata, CA. I just finished an abbreviated stint on a local food farm (80 miles into the woods). I have been trying to find my nest, one might say. I have lived in numerous regions of California and in 2006, I realized that I needed to find my community. Fair Oaks seemed so great in many respects except that a) I may not have been ready; b) the economy isn't totally there; c) my car was stolen on the last day I was there--a sign to not go back. Previous to Fair Oaks, I lived in the Stanford region for 6 years, attending medical school and experiencing a lifestyle for which student loans should not be used.
Since leaving Fair Oaks in June 2007, I have couch-surfed and lived in the following areas, doing my healing thing and receiving variable compensation:
San Fernando Valley (LA)
Venice (LA)
Oak Run (Redding)
Anderson (Redding)
Berkeley
Sunnyvale (Bay Area)
Reno, Nevada
Las Vegas, Nevada
Orleans, CA
Arcata, CA
Now I am headed for Eugene, Oregon. We'll see what I find there and where I go from there.
I had an odd derailment from my healing arts mission to try my soul at political consulting in the astral world on the last upstart. Didn't work out exactly as one might hope. And the most previous entry was just a shot-gun attempt at telling the world what I might like to do in an ideal resource-earning way.
Now I am on the road. I am couchsurfing in Arcata, CA. I just finished an abbreviated stint on a local food farm (80 miles into the woods). I have been trying to find my nest, one might say. I have lived in numerous regions of California and in 2006, I realized that I needed to find my community. Fair Oaks seemed so great in many respects except that a) I may not have been ready; b) the economy isn't totally there; c) my car was stolen on the last day I was there--a sign to not go back. Previous to Fair Oaks, I lived in the Stanford region for 6 years, attending medical school and experiencing a lifestyle for which student loans should not be used.
Since leaving Fair Oaks in June 2007, I have couch-surfed and lived in the following areas, doing my healing thing and receiving variable compensation:
San Fernando Valley (LA)
Venice (LA)
Oak Run (Redding)
Anderson (Redding)
Berkeley
Sunnyvale (Bay Area)
Reno, Nevada
Las Vegas, Nevada
Orleans, CA
Arcata, CA
Now I am headed for Eugene, Oregon. We'll see what I find there and where I go from there.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
For Hire (because only money makes the world go round)
I need work. I am interested in the following:
Interning Physician in obstetrics, transitional, family medicine or internal medicine.
I am exceptionally qualified as a graduate of Stanford University in 2006. In the state of California, I will need assistance from the program to ensure the medical board allows me to continue training because of the lapse in time since graduation. My CV is available @ http://scaadium.com/experience.html. I scored 219/249 on the USMLE step 1 and 2, respectively. I am happy to offer a one-year commitment.
Intentional Community Operator
As a pioneer in social planning, I have been interested in developing cooperative communities of people who live and work together. Recognizing that there is a great deal of wasted energy in so many people living parallel lives with each person or family unit working to create food, shelter, and social support, I seek an opportunity to create an Intentional Community based on cooperative living in an urban area. I have experienced a version of intentional community with 30 people in a 2000 sq. ft. home, while living in Los Angeles and I know that it could happen anywhere.
The premise for my Intentional Community is that many single-family homes offer far greater space than a single family needs and room mating is often difficult to organize. There is also a shortage of affordable housing. With appropriate planning and resources, I would like to create shared spaces that bring people together, including dividing sleeping quarters into dorms, providing for a communal kitchen and laundry with all expenses covered by a reasonable rent. This model serves a great need in our population of young people working low-wage jobs who need a comfortable low maintenance, no-drama home life.
If you own a property and are interested in working to develop a sustainable work-life environment for others, please contact me.
Human Nature Consulting
I have a powerful understanding of human nature that I've developed through my long education towards becoming a physician and my unique life experiences. I am also unafraid to speak about my interest and understanding of psychic and astral phenomena. I have logged numerous hours and manuscripts in creating social policy to reform the global community towards a sustainable, cooperative, peaceful world. Although without formal training or preparation with respect to politics, my level of understanding of world events is high. I pride myself on taking an offbeat career path because the cost of choosing the common path was to lose integrity and endorse hypocrisy.
If your business or organization can benefit from such vision, please contact me.
Interning Physician in obstetrics, transitional, family medicine or internal medicine.
I am exceptionally qualified as a graduate of Stanford University in 2006. In the state of California, I will need assistance from the program to ensure the medical board allows me to continue training because of the lapse in time since graduation. My CV is available @ http://scaadium.com/experience.html. I scored 219/249 on the USMLE step 1 and 2, respectively. I am happy to offer a one-year commitment.
Intentional Community Operator
As a pioneer in social planning, I have been interested in developing cooperative communities of people who live and work together. Recognizing that there is a great deal of wasted energy in so many people living parallel lives with each person or family unit working to create food, shelter, and social support, I seek an opportunity to create an Intentional Community based on cooperative living in an urban area. I have experienced a version of intentional community with 30 people in a 2000 sq. ft. home, while living in Los Angeles and I know that it could happen anywhere.
The premise for my Intentional Community is that many single-family homes offer far greater space than a single family needs and room mating is often difficult to organize. There is also a shortage of affordable housing. With appropriate planning and resources, I would like to create shared spaces that bring people together, including dividing sleeping quarters into dorms, providing for a communal kitchen and laundry with all expenses covered by a reasonable rent. This model serves a great need in our population of young people working low-wage jobs who need a comfortable low maintenance, no-drama home life.
If you own a property and are interested in working to develop a sustainable work-life environment for others, please contact me.
Human Nature Consulting
I have a powerful understanding of human nature that I've developed through my long education towards becoming a physician and my unique life experiences. I am also unafraid to speak about my interest and understanding of psychic and astral phenomena. I have logged numerous hours and manuscripts in creating social policy to reform the global community towards a sustainable, cooperative, peaceful world. Although without formal training or preparation with respect to politics, my level of understanding of world events is high. I pride myself on taking an offbeat career path because the cost of choosing the common path was to lose integrity and endorse hypocrisy.
If your business or organization can benefit from such vision, please contact me.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Opening Remarks
Dear People,
I am working to get my data organized and spread to the masses as effectively as I can.
In brief, I am currently re-writing scaadium.com to reflect my new political mission and eliminate the outdated concepts that you may be wondering about. How is this person connected to Global Community, World Bank and WP258, some have asked.
I sorta got into it on accident, admittedly. Through the development of my psychic connections and gifts, I have been able to communicate far and wide and when asked questions, I seemingly often have the exact right answer, whether divine, networked or learned.
When I began taking questions from big people worldwide about how to end World War 3 (the US inflictions upon the rest of the world that have been so well disguised by or hidden from the US media), I gave them the answers. This resulted in a World Peace Treaty, known informally as WP258, in honor of the date 5 Feb 2008.
Seemingly, GWB (the elected president of the United States) was all for this, as it made crystal clear, logical sense, and he surrendered control of US policy to me and my colleagues, which was valid in the eyes of the world, even though communicated on another plane of consciousness because many people communicate this way and then follow up with actions. In the time since then, various corporations, governmental operatives and interest groups have violently opposed the efforts and, seemingly, have tried to get me killed or slandered. Meanwhile, I have stayed alive and have been trying to work with other world leaders to fix the damage caused by the US government.
Most interestingly, the US government is apparently divided into those ready for a new world, lead by free thinkers interested in sustainability, ecohappyism, non-violence, etcetera... and the others: comfortable short-sighted old cronies, power-hungry interest groups who represent dollar-focused industries. Some good government officials are ready to hand over Excalibur to the rightful person--the one representing human values. Wise individuals who haven't been subject to exclusion by the forces at bay, know that my policy is rock solid and that is my only claim to decision-making power. My logical benevolent policies are so good and cost so little that it almost seems amazing that no one could have thought of it all sooner.
I have never sought power and chose Medicine as my career focus because although I grew up wanting to change the world, I knew that the industry of politics corrupts the revolutionaries. So I came in the back door, armed simply with my brain and soul. I initially expressed disinterest in holding a position of power and asked to be only an advisor. Interestingly, the people who wish for the US to adopt sustainable humanitarian policies witnessed GWB surrender when I spoke out, suggesting that I would be the one to lead the US to these goals.
We are in an election year and although democracy, as practiced in America is all but a hoax, some people want to wait until January to change our course of action. Other world leaders have suggested an earlier election with the available data because waiting on a traditional date is foolish with respect to policies that are affecting the world so severely. Others even argue that in the face of a severely corrupt government, which the current administration represents, the negotiation of 5 Feb 2008 was a legitimate coup and governments are replaced all the time.
love,
-S
I am working to get my data organized and spread to the masses as effectively as I can.
In brief, I am currently re-writing scaadium.com to reflect my new political mission and eliminate the outdated concepts that you may be wondering about. How is this person connected to Global Community, World Bank and WP258, some have asked.
I sorta got into it on accident, admittedly. Through the development of my psychic connections and gifts, I have been able to communicate far and wide and when asked questions, I seemingly often have the exact right answer, whether divine, networked or learned.
When I began taking questions from big people worldwide about how to end World War 3 (the US inflictions upon the rest of the world that have been so well disguised by or hidden from the US media), I gave them the answers. This resulted in a World Peace Treaty, known informally as WP258, in honor of the date 5 Feb 2008.
Seemingly, GWB (the elected president of the United States) was all for this, as it made crystal clear, logical sense, and he surrendered control of US policy to me and my colleagues, which was valid in the eyes of the world, even though communicated on another plane of consciousness because many people communicate this way and then follow up with actions. In the time since then, various corporations, governmental operatives and interest groups have violently opposed the efforts and, seemingly, have tried to get me killed or slandered. Meanwhile, I have stayed alive and have been trying to work with other world leaders to fix the damage caused by the US government.
Most interestingly, the US government is apparently divided into those ready for a new world, lead by free thinkers interested in sustainability, ecohappyism, non-violence, etcetera... and the others: comfortable short-sighted old cronies, power-hungry interest groups who represent dollar-focused industries. Some good government officials are ready to hand over Excalibur to the rightful person--the one representing human values. Wise individuals who haven't been subject to exclusion by the forces at bay, know that my policy is rock solid and that is my only claim to decision-making power. My logical benevolent policies are so good and cost so little that it almost seems amazing that no one could have thought of it all sooner.
I have never sought power and chose Medicine as my career focus because although I grew up wanting to change the world, I knew that the industry of politics corrupts the revolutionaries. So I came in the back door, armed simply with my brain and soul. I initially expressed disinterest in holding a position of power and asked to be only an advisor. Interestingly, the people who wish for the US to adopt sustainable humanitarian policies witnessed GWB surrender when I spoke out, suggesting that I would be the one to lead the US to these goals.
We are in an election year and although democracy, as practiced in America is all but a hoax, some people want to wait until January to change our course of action. Other world leaders have suggested an earlier election with the available data because waiting on a traditional date is foolish with respect to policies that are affecting the world so severely. Others even argue that in the face of a severely corrupt government, which the current administration represents, the negotiation of 5 Feb 2008 was a legitimate coup and governments are replaced all the time.
love,
-S
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