7/17 daily stream of consciousness

Life without Consequences

I summarized the problem with humans. They have learned to live without the consequences of their actions. For the new-consciousness children, the reason they quite logically say, “I don't want to do that because I don't have to,” is because it's true. They see through the veils of human emotional manipulation around should and since all their needs are met without doing anything for it, they have no sense of what it takes to actually create the things they take for granted. This describes most people under 30 these days because there has been a thinning of the veil increasingly since the 70's. The problem is that there is a real human value on all of the things that we consume from food to plastic toys and fossil-driven recreation.

As many people know, I've been working on the problem of how to create enough in my life to sustain myself and others in my charge. I had an illusory financial system subsidizing my adult existence through college and med school, leaving me with a skewed perception of dollars and being of service to society. I was very well educated but didn't take the bait of guaranteed employment as a licensed physician. I had to learn what skills of mine would be worth paying for and I think I have finally figured it out.

Right now, my life is focused on work, love and money (chakras 3-5). In that order, sorta. My angel personal assistants, who filter my calls, prioritize these for me. Some work I do simply because it is the right thing to do, even though I don't get paid for it. If I have some political consulting to do to keep Theos'/God's people alive, I take the call. Because I'm not racially biased whatsoever, I'm sometimes seen as anti-patriotic but the truth is that I am always trying to unify people. So when Iranians tell me they'll help fund my film, “258,” that will bring Peace in the Middle East closer to reality, I say, “hell, yes!” Why is it the Arabs who seem to recognize my contributions the most? Possibly because they get bombed more than anyone else and thought that 258 was a really good idea. Other people don't feel the consequences of our world war as much.

We are in a world war. There are American troops and intelligence agents in at least 37 countries in the world. Do you think that people appreciate it when they hear a 31 year-old doctor psychically mediate world peace with the approval of the elected American president and then hear that various corporate interests and government bodies depend on the industry of killing people. The food crisis in the world is the result of (mostly) American bombs destroying the food production possibility in the soils of the world for 5 years/bomb. Where have we bombed? The Middle East, Afghanistan, Bosnia, China, all around Asia.

Using people as iPhones. I don't know where the line should be drawn on the body jumping, "Being John Malkovich" phenomenon, what have you. If you don't know what that means, I'm sorry. You're probably better off. Last summer, I learned that because humans are connected through various consciousness circuits, people can use them to talk to other people. I feel like I'm talking to people in suits a la A Scanner Darkly. I think that the level to which people will astral-project, which is another name for it, is questionable. Should there be permission? Talk but don't touch,” might be a good start.

The reason I don't have very many people in my personal life is because they get used as psychic telephones by people, known and unknown; the consequences of me being famous. I love my daughters but when I see that they are functional pawn-omatics for people who need to talk to me or want to lick my face, I don't like putting them through that. My younger daughter gets really confused when a zillion people vy for her eyes and ears and words, so I don't spend a lot of time with her but I still try to call her every night just to tell her I love her. It sucks. It means that I can't really be the mom I want to be until everything else settles down. Who knows when that will be? Why don't I just not let people do it? It's complicated. Sometimes they're pretty important calls (world political consulting) and obviously partnering is less important, but not insignificant. Emotionally it is not easy for me to control. Certainly many would agree that the calls about money need to be taken.

My career: I am officially a writer. I write screenplays mostly because that industry offers the highest $/word and I can bust out condensed nuggets of film-marketable words so fast. Some days I've been getting in 3000 words in 6 hours worth of work. I also have 50,000 word rough draft of a book for print about the last year. It would seem that I found the magic key: writing is I was clearly clearly destined for? My website is almost completely updated and should be by the time you are reading this blog. Writing so much does wipe me out emotionally at times. It takes strength to dapple in divine wisdom (theosophy). As for getting paid as a writer, it should be any day or even any minute. It's kind of astounding to think of going from rags to riches, but I think I can hack it.

I love watching my chakra-development-work-wage theory in action all the time now. It certainly helps me to realize what my time is worth. When I was growing food, my time was worth $4/hr; as a nanny, $5-10/hr; as an autistic caregiver, it was worth $17; as a doctor-in-training, it was around $20. Now that I realize that I can contribute to the world on the 6th -8th chakra level, I realize what I should be charging. It's nice. I also realize why I can't be a doctor or other 4th -level occupation right now. I've been short-circuiting through my 3rd and 4th levels to focus my development of the 5th through 8th. It's important, even if a lot of people don't understand. Perhaps, the below may help illustrate why I have struggled with this world so much this year.

To summarize that theory, Steiner speaks about spiritual organs that he calls lotus flowers that are at various levels of activation, along the lines of the chakra systems in Eastern symbolic systems. I have been using psychosocial analyses, my spiritual reading and my own clairvoyant development to understand these concepts. Now I find it really interesting walking around, noticing what someone's occupation is and assessing their level of development. It's weird being me.
Chakra 1; base of spine (sacrum); color: red; maslow's level (ML) 1: food/shelter/safety; economic vocations (EV): sex workers, slaves.
C-2; gonads; color: orange; ML 2: family love relationships, reproduction; EV: homemakers, housekeepers, nannys, introverted skilled trades mechanics, smithery.
C-3; umbilicus/belly, yellow, m.l 3: community, social relationships; EV: services, especially food service, bureaucracy, basic office work.
C-4; heart (seat of the soul); green; ML 4: intimate love; EV: emotionally intense service: healthcare, education, management.
C-5; throat/thyroid (seat of the will); blue; ML 5: creativity; EV: entrepreneurs, higher education, higher healthcare.
C-6: third eye/pituitary gland; indigo; ML 6: intuition, self-actualization; EV: CEOs, Movie Makers, Artists.
C-7: crown of the head; pineal gland (seat of the soul); purple; connection with the divine. High priests and such.
C-8: multidimensionality; Rose Pink.