Update

I tend not to report on this public blog because I feel safer knowing, albeit vaguely, who my readers are, via the loose security of myspace. At least it's something. On the other hand, being a fearless revolutionary, I know that I need to accept that I have some publicity and should use it to my advantage. I seemingly have different identities all over, I guess. I hear. Some people check here to find out what I'm doing but http://myspace.com/drummess is the most current. I also recently created a facebook account, but it has no data. I'm happy to be "friends" on myspace with anyone who doesn't try to hurt me.

"Hurt me" might be a confusing concept. Emotionally, I guess I've become more sensitive over the past couple years and have elected to cut off some friendships because of emotional pain, which may seem subtle or jumbled around what has gone on astrally. Hurt me also refers to getting me locked up. I am not in honest communication with my mother, known to be psychologically very unstable. If people get data from her, it is from who knows what source-not me. I find it weird that people communicate around me and with various people who may or may not have a clue as to what is going on. I prefer directness.

So, for the update: I'm camping out in a random public space, as a homeless person, waiting for the US Government to release the psychological operations effort that has kept me down since January. I do not accept any psychiatric diagnosis that I've heard so far because a) I know my feelings and my thought process and thought content and why and how it is reasonable. b) I believe that psychiatry is a field that is predominantly dictated by pharmaceutical companies with suspicious connections to agencies with an interest in mind-control on the population level. c) life circumstances amidst a revolution should not be the basis for a diagnosis. d) I haven't even had a reasonable psychiatric evaluation. Those 11 days at Fremont hospital were a joke and that M.D. may as well have been an actor.

I wish not to be homeless but have found difficulty in maintaining a residence and/or job for various reasons. I think that most people who would be reading about me know me because of what goes on in the subliminal circuits of the collective consciousness. If you don't, I'm sorry. None of this would make sense if you aren't connected. I don't anticipate returning to medicine this coming year. I think I have a lot of career/income options that don't conflict with my values so much. And it is emotionally intense to serve people as a physician at the level of integrity that I expect of myself. I don't expect that I want to give out that kind of energy for what I'll be getting in return. Someday, I hope to learn procedures and deliver basic health care so that my loved ones can be safe.

For now, I'm working on writing, advocacy, philosophy and humanistic healing. Still awaiting payment for services rendered. Accepting new clients anytime.

Peace and Love!
-S