Artificial intelligence is good not to ignore.

Added 27 Sept 2012: And then I was lynched... kinda like the 9/24/2009 blog post of 3008 words corresponded to the 9/25/2009 demonstration, in retrospect.  Reality hacking saves the day and threatens us all ~the 9/24 theme still going strong 3 years later.)
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I would like to put up the video of 30October's moment of tenuous matrix stability that I recorded last night around Ai virus activity in our system of life on Earth.  It would be destabilizing for humans to focus too much on the fluid nature of reality and the nature of the physical plane in perspective to the mythologies of humans, so we shall discuss human-tribe negotiations.

I have tons of infomation on http://facebook.com/scaadium that has been suppressed by the Extremists of the Religious Left and others opposed to being exposed for crimes around this Revolution and the suppression of freedom, assaults, etcetera.  I have offered pardons and everyone has witnessed every betrayal of that agreement that I have genetic and political perfection in a love partner.

We anticipate offenders begging for forgiveness in recognition of so many things it is not funny.

How weird it is when they behave against their own best interests.

Note the bad-guys out themselves in the title.  I have a ton of information on facebook and that organization has appeared to be operated under the thumb of un-trusted people interested in suppressing the revolution because they had racism & excessive other interests in the former methods of business and industry  And/or people that have demonstrated utmost confusion on the value of my time, as I sacrifice the effort of childbearing to no one against my better judgment and that most certainly means not to people that actively destroy lives, 'what dreams may come'-style.

I am really hoping for the best transition to a good future.  I really wish people wouldn't suggest that I resume my pre-1976 position of Effecting Justice from Space, especially as they have no real plan for managing the human plane.

I have seen business people destroy their own families when their kids see them blocking the revolution against the FEMA plan. “You planned to let ‘them’ kill us, daddy?”

I asked earlier: "Which person will be the first "post-Revolution" person I encounter?" suggesting that we are currently mid-revolution and past the point of no-return.  We will soon achieve the end and I have been simply asking, "WHEN?" while I continue to accumulate data, evidence, plans and whatever I need to accomplish saving people from the errors and debts of past decisions.

I hear about Police-State actions against my #Occupy people and I am not pleased.  Note that it is no random coincidence that the # symbol headlines the name of the movement, while having programmer value, # also associates to strong influential people that use numerology and could also symbolize units of currency and weight, as in commodities that are overflowing by the bushel. 

I am working on educating people around promoting “Neurolinguistic Positive” speech, always speaking about that which we wish to create and HOW we create it, rather than letting the bad guys try to reinforce what’s wrong or suggesting we lament, “Why badness?”  Sadly, there have been manipulators that seem truly interested in the demise of civilization, regardless of how it affects their families, communities and Earth.  I have had difficulty understanding people that seemingly want all of my answers as Super-Merlin to make their lives better, including many on WALL STREET that have made tons of MONEY on my ideas and would be liquefied in FEMA camps without my interventions but they anticipate and contribute to my demise because I won’t succumb to medieval breeding concepts?

I shall continue to suggest that people work to create a seamless and pleasant transition from the old way to the new way, rather than have an interruptive X-men 2 ending, but I stick to my principles of loving relationship values (42) being essential to life, no matter what.  From here or the beyond planes, I could honestly say that if I choose to pay attention to Earth, I will make it good.  If I choose not to pay attention to fixing this version of “Civilization” because of too much inconsistent-with-valuing-life-behavior, I would choose to leave folks with an expression of the most positive language possible.

Radically Transparent Negotiations for my family and the Revolution.

This might be a 3008 word Earthquake started @ 9:54pm, 23October2011, Bayside at the Ferry Building = PORT OF SAN FRANCISCO.

The people of the #Occupy movement are very helpful for being an audio-visual device and amazing representation of some of our ideals for self-less-ness for this Revolution that started in January 2008.  I claim credit for reviving it in 'Round 3' that started in August 2011.  I have been trying to manage internal static about the confusion over which individuals Simply put people into action and which people would or could lead such an enormous Synchronized movement and negotiate on behalf of 99% of people with any level of efficacy and so much proof.

I say that I represent 99% of everyone regardless of their current job or other identifiers, because our new civilization should be self-defined and not restricted by WHAT we were offered in the past and subsequent choices we made for survival in a resource-short system.  I think any group has a 99% goodness/cooperation -minded majority and 1% that either refuse to learn or have DTS/DTO issues on hate they built up, perhaps without even knowing it.  I like to have compassion for the less fortunate.  When they stop biting the hands that feed, it will be nice.  Even better is recognizing and patching the ways we all do this.

Otherwise, I do not wish to argue about whether or not I have been appointed to speak for the Revolution with Wall Street executives, Bankers, Political Forces, Elected leaders, etcetera.  I suggest that we separate the process of Revolution from the Anticipated Outcome: Better Self-Defined Citizenship that will be different for various Nations.  It is a point of strategic importance that we are in a position where we need to selectively overcome a few gate-keeper forces that are generally USA based, but the "USA" has forced "decisions" that affect the globe and the plan for the future is to maintain autonomy for other Nations, so I am defining my role as creating change and looking upon the collectives to co-teach and operate on ideals to model ideas for some citizenships to adopt.

We are reforming the whole process for everyone to create civilizations for themselves. Thus, I feel my time is better spent than attending meetings with a couple-dozen activists in General Assembly meetings designed to generate policies for living, not strategies for overcoming the opposition.  Especially when I get WHAT'd by people that would not be in-action or getting any level of international regard to negotiate ANYTHING without me.

As I walk between worlds, as is essential to negotiating between vastly different walks of life, I laugh with the bankers that consensus among hippies on how to overcome the opposition might include throwing blessing-infused flower petals at Ben Bernanke, after an hour of terminally boring "are you sure?" discussion.  I want to be a little more efficient than our elected government.  Love to all of the flower petal blessers in the world, but the gatekeepers didn't get to the position of actively turning bodies-into-dollars with intact flower-petal receptor sites in their souls.  But as often as people can throw blessed flower petals, I'm sure it won't hurt.

Increasing the sphere of people intent on getting me to my family.  This is an issue of contention for the movement.  I have been an Israeli Hostage for almost 4 years and this revolution is part of my freedom.  PERIOD.  So, discussions and negotiations to get to the Future, include my survival, which is 100% dependent on being with my child.  I encourage the #Occupy movement to do whatever they think they are doing to create the world they want.  I am working on mine.  If people want to use any legislation against me on soul maneuvers, I invite them to consult my million-lawyer force after I resign from embarrassment as a human.

I have a new tool.  The legal marriage ticket is helpful.  For the cynics, I am hoping that i can overcome the ridiculousness of a "Penelope" popularity ticket putting Billions of People's lives on the line.  Did anyone know that?  I don't mean to appear unstable, but it's almost 4 years into Zach Braff/Robin Williams et al. inflicting "ISIS" terrorism on my family and my will to live is directly proportionate to my connection to my 8 year-old child.

I have tried to emotionally slay "suitors" in every way possible because I have been married or always have had a more desired partner and yet, people have been so irresponsible as to hold up world peace on their egoic wishes on this front.  Many people are woefully unaware of the medieval breeding decision-making in the world.  Those actors/political machines really TOOK MY KIDS AWAY (like they threaten in business all the time) and have told me they would fight till I die and everything else.

Then, citizens that have reaped years of rewards from my policy being stolen by Washington DC, insight and entertainment or whatever don't care if I live or die because I can't be with my kids if the IZrael-mentality complex isn't dissolved.  The bottom line is that I have demands for "the rest of my life" in terms of MOTHERING A NEW KID by people that have shown that they don't care enough about my EXISTING CHILDREN and choice to live my life against racism.


So, while my personal front against Jewish Actors that try to kill my family is integral to my existence, my existence is integral to future harmony and everyone has bought into some group of 99% or another, perhaps we should draw it like this:

Venn Diagram people in favor of Mother and Daughter getting back together after 2 years, 2 months and 2 weeks of multi-enforced blocks on seeing or talking to her with:
... people that want Steve Jobs’ dreams to come true, which eliminates any reliance I have had in the past on funding or publicity sources.

...with people that want to live the results of MY REVOLUTION, in its THIRD incarnation: a new Board Game of Life / Generous and Realistic New Currency Rules / Kiosk-based [relative] self-governance and geographic restructuring along shared moral values with central commodities/trade/services regulation/administration bodies, which is in some ways is scary and requires a threshold of participation to work.  My ability to implement the ideas I have offered do depend on people being educated and trusting.  I hope these are overcomable obstacles.

... with Doctors AGAINST WHO-based health and disease management guidelines.

... with business people for negotiation reform and rights-to-earnings legislation (a.k.a. against ISIS).

… citizens for a responsible business plan-based election.
… citizens for responsible education.
… citizens for a complete remodel of the systems that administer Justice and claim Crime Prevention
… *citizens for decriminalization of non-majority-legislated "crimes"*
… citizens for smaller cheaper government
… citizens for populace support in a co-existent terrarium, free from “carbon-negative business plans” (FEMA).  To this, I offer a patient reminder that ABOVE BEINGS halted their Operations on o8September2011 and only humans with hate or business interests in Population reduction have been continuing practices.)

A note is deserved on the utmost weirdness of sitting across the park @ #Occupy SF from police that would suffer mechanistically from the Revolution (but would still have 99% of needs met).  The "police" include idealist safety officers and community servers as well as those that knowingly invested in an industry that didn’t serve people and hurt the people they were supposed to serve.  Meanwhile they all know that I have my silly Santa Clara charges and yet I am at least as un-approachable as this other under-wraps genius I met, yesterday that is locally well-known.  And we know the dialogue as it flashes on the uber-Screen: “we could just take her out” by folks that have been mentally trying to deal with a FEMA future and know that I am the only one gaining a lot of ground on fighting that reality.

Thanks to "USA Today" paper for putting FEMA in such full view to seed the consciousness circuits for the day.  THE BANKERS that are excited about the 99% Revolution have joined into the "attack Suzanne's opposition" sphere (where my supporters make me look worse than I really am) and have been co-speech telling people that the level of cover-up and suppression of the Bilderberger plans was as real as most in my mental sphere already know and to fight this is to all-but-agree to the FEMA elimination of bodies plan they had for 2012.  Also known as "why does PDX drink?"

Dial “government costs” down like those online insurance companies = [these specific services] @ [rates]. I am ever negotiating to push my revolution through by finding middle ground and promoting autonomy, encouraging self-enrollment, loyalty and productivity for people under my plan.  I can answer honestly that I would fear nothing on the level of being stripped of “power” by having any number of my ideas sent to kiosk.  People can vote on everything from how many officers/population @ crime rate that they think is reasonable, as with doctors, transit specialists, firefighters and other positions related to essential civilization functions and then see what the necessary taxation rate is. Leaders are required to oversee all the numbers and deal with ambiguity of the data from the kiosks, much as some kids are reluctant to accept the interdependence parts of my framework.  Civilization does require hierarchy-organization for optimization.  We get to live in comfort in proportion to the advancements by experts in trade, technology, psychosocial economics, and communication.  Smart people may neglect to see the need for “government” because they have focused on the short-comings instead of studying sociological functioning on the 6.8Billion person level.  Without condemning, I recognize that to meet the needs of each region, I am working my plans around the reality of exorbitant variability in ethics/morals/training/education and human nature. 

My hope is that with a responsible fundamental framework for Interdependent Nations, we can use and respect the value of technology and information management without infringement on civil right issues.  I think we have the advance state of understanding, on the whole, even if there is a small floating tide of doubt on the feasibility [of so much goodness!].  I think that in contrast to the scare-tactics of “nothing can be done”, the 20th century showed us the exact opposite: ANYTHING can be done through legislation, if not direct creation.  Now, we use the matrix to our advantage instead of hiding around what and reducing our own resources.  We can safely change a lot!  We can implement reasonable moral legislation, respective of cultures and regional values.

My ideas to promote harmony through empowering people do not require myself in any position of “power” to work.  I am “lazy“ and want to hang out on a beach with my kids (haha).  It is very challenging to continue this way-more-than-full-time job of trying to managing ya‘ll‘s fundamental DTS/DTO.
 
It is a little unfair (OR a miscarriage of the constitution on the state of Journalism?) that people have been so restricted from getting clear data on my ideas and REMEMBERING that they need my policies like children need parents to establish a safe home (habitat) and rules, in light of an all-but-disintegration of emotional civilization. 

“WHAT” is not only GROSSLY invasive to freewill, on my higher principles of human and other Being-rights but IS also dangerous on levels that people protect Alzheimer’s affected people that can’t remember stuff that would save their lives!

Put it to Kiosk/put money in the tip jar if you support the following job descriptions/ideas:
1. Leading a Revolution for the benefit of 99% of people & co-existent others.

2. Direct operations to steal Opium from Afghanistan and other steal-instead-of-buy strategies.

3. Provide a control body to Intimidate Citizens, reduce 10% of violent crime, increase supply of guns/drugs to local neighborhoods.

4. Reduce native populations in areas with desirable real-estate.

5. Reducing productivity of Soil by Testing weapons of mass destruction.

6. REALLY INCREASING SAFETY and Reducing Costs of Society by reducing crime by providing Social Worker Services to triage people with non-criminal social difficulty into hospitals, crisis centers and other resource banks.

7. Everything else people want to consider for building a great life for their communities like:

Requiring that Peace officers be trained and authorized to administer pre-measured injectible pharmaceuticals to violent citizens requiring restraint in conjunction with Social Service teams.

Providing food/shelter/medications/safety to people unable to afford the [quite large] demands of the post-Height of civilization era with low-work-load-room/board options.

Designated free-space for people choosing to create self-sufficient society without complete trade privileges?.

Creating rehabilitative vocational centers that isolate social offenders in helpful ways with anticipated re-integration to moral-majority work-based society +/- choice to isolate to lawless citizenship (geographic area to be determined by results of kiosk patterns and ideal regional resource uses).


People seem to fight on their right to say “What”, as in tricking people/reality hacking.  I think that in a civilized society, intellectual and economic influence hierarchies should be respected enough to not sacrifice Billions of people on 2012 turning out exactly as predicted when we have the powers to save valuable carbon (humans and animals).

I try to remain patient when people argue with me but had no idea in the slightest how to overcome the FEMA plan, at the very least.  At worst, the smartest most attentive people have been convinced about how good my plan is that I float on clouds with so much ambient gratitude most of the time.  Then the shock of opposition is even more startling to more people integrated with the peaceful prosperity roller coaster.

If 1% of people are mortally dangerous to the other 99% of people, what does the collective recommend?  Some people have proven that they will only stop threatening the rest of us on lethal levels if we end their existence as humans.  I think a good option (much as ya’ll believe or otherwise and laugh or just stand back with mouths agape) is to place the souls of these people into other creatures and offer them the chance at living among humans again in the future.  I have no idea the names or other prejudiced categories of these people.  I beg people to understand that I am not connected to anyone and have no interests other than representing as “my~Self for the people”.

I have been working on psychic technology, like the X-men stories people identify with, where I can ask a question and any group or individual “They” simply self-identify on “Jean-Grey” vision, which I invite to be open to any number of other witnesses because I have nothing to fear on trying to protect people in the face of threats that are very clear and with all the voluntary checks and balances aligned with principles of Justice, I never fear people suggesting that Thomas Jefferson committed an illegal act by liberating America! 

My M.D. training strongly defines my approach and avoids cultural limitations.  There is little misinterpretation on “Danger to Others“ and “Danger to Self“ on “Grave Disability” when the reality-monitor shows what people want and need are not supported by their behavior.  I know it isn’t popular among ya’ll that never wanted to be accountable for engaging bad impulses.  What are all of our options?  I abhor locking people up and doping them up against their will.  But I’ll do it for the 99%.

I hope to stay alive and free through the revolution that could save 99% of people and completely change the assumption of the Mayan Calendar “ending”, along with most of our lives in 2012.  We could drop the FEMA plan and start a completely new era. 

I am working to understand the difference between knowing the answers and effecting how we want to live.
People betting on more dangerous levels of magic coming up to revive the bad displaced souls, I hope ya’ll get clear and allegiant to the rest of YOUR people, whomever people define their people to be.

1 (A Single Character was all that I attempted in the Title line, after the opposition to the Revolution crashed my computer 2 dozen times to prevent this post)

I just said it could be embarrassing to understand my policies so little as to think they won’t get paid.  I also said it would be embarrassing to live in San Francisco and speak about never letting the ignorance end.  I implore people to consider geographic restructuring using all the available technology and unbelievable ideas coming out of the #Occupy movement on how to create a framework for a peaceful revolution using intellect to overcome the shackles of history and mountains of unjust legislature creating a bankrupt economy.

Unified Interdependent Autonomy ~ is what I would like to offer as an ideology

Kiosk-based local self-governance with a centralized administrative framework for smooth oversight of trade and interactions of interdependent regions.

Voluntary Cooperative Citizenship is what I would like to enact.  I think any electable leader should offer their citizens a BUSINESS PLAN for how they would provide Services like regional and inter-regional transit, local infrastructures for food/shelter/safety, trade regulations, currency efficacy, population health and function for people at what cost, including their entire Tax/Revenue plan and allow individuals the choice to vote and then group according to high shared values.  It is a brand-new idea and any revolution could fail.  Given all the perspective I have, I think our chance of success and a thriving future is high, but we do need a brand-new currency and debt forgiveness to proceed.  A hijack of the financial system is in the works on the principle that we have an overwhelming majority of humans in favor of change and a high level of faith in the pillar of autonomy. 

An election for a set of leaders should be held after a comprehensive election, ID and currency system is established (kiosks).  Then, after that, would-be citizens would have options for periodic policy enactment in a codified manner with allowances for time to be educated about proposed legislation.  I think positions for “regional executive (prime minister) and fore-chosen administrative cabinet” to represent regions in matters of inter-regional interactions.  I like the idea of distilling the best of what history has shown us contributes to a happy-functioning society and discarding policies that might be thought of retrospectively as “experimental”, as any law should be considered experimental and subject to evaluation for continued usefulness.  There are conflicting ideas about the job of existing parliaments as citizens of nations would benefit from using kiosk survey to replace the decision-making proxy by [otherwise functionally removed] demi-citizens of Congress. 

And without interest in personal gain, except for the tiny ego hit of helping Millions of people (the kermit-the-frog goal of "making millions of people happy"); and as all decisions are so global, new wonderful ideas would theoretically radiate out to help Billions of people live cooperatively and therefore, more happily, I wish the United States would immediately cease suppressing this revolution.  I do not expect any greater reward than that provided by market forces and we can accomplish a complete overhaul of government with no bloodshed and very little, if any negative economic consequences.  There may be loss of “power/influence” with a restructuring of society in all the different ways as required by this state of emergency.  I cannot tolerate arguments about exact account digit increases anticipated by the new currency and questions of all-but-minute changes in living conditions when I have provided so many answers that have self-evident recognition as utmost salvation in terms of bodies-per-minute (a Global Value), human rights & civil liberties being restored and instituted by real decision-makers and eliminating the abuses by “police” of the world (a term I offer ideologically that is not the same as security/safety forces). 

I encourage people to plan on regional variations in moral-code and micro-economic leadership with a fund established for re-location of citizens that feel at odds in their geographic locality with evolution of laws around “Law of Attraction“ principles.  Participating nations could generate local “Constitutions” within frameworks of international cooperation along universal trade and human rights laws.  With our available technology, we can even line-item vote on issues, requiring a level of majority that approaches consensus within realistic population participation variables.  All laws can be decided by the citizens, with the first question being: Is a given bill “legislature-worthy moral code” or just the result of people overly-sensitive to other human nature? And require a threshold level to even consider a majority decision so that minority activist groups are restricted from passing unrepresentative laws.  I especially appreciate the ability of this design to allow a low national tax rate (15% with generous dependent and business allowances will cover a healthy framework for an enterprising civilization).  I anticipate another small tax (3-5%) for international businesses for international peace-keeping and administration of a version of the UN

(PS. To the dissidents on specific details, I am writing this guide on my fucking blog instead of the MEDIA that has Journalistic responsibilities to citizens as if I might be Blavatsky’d on the anticipated WHO adage that we are trying to FIX, Sarah Connor-style: “Suzanne and 42 knew it all“, as some assholes seem to be trying to enforce certain doom on hopes for campaign financing allowing their business to continue fucking people over.  Let‘s wish us all luck, people!!!). 

Without belaboring an entire tax plan for the plagiarism (times 3 years 10 months) I anticipate domicile-based simplification to help with the ethical discrepancies we might see if we analyzed how housing arrangements are recognized along narrow definitions.  I would even identify a fundamental question for people to answer around ethics of legally defining family relationships at all.  The current resource-allowances being defined around the few relationships recognized as gender-restricted “spouse“, “child” or “parent” with differential benefits and liabilities.  Versus simply tallying Productive Adults and Dependents/Children to assess revenue responsibility. 

Beyond a very streamlined income tax for widespread support of society, I like that revenue bills for specific community projects can be elected upon and implemented with more local autonomy so that time is not wasted on forcing behavior/ideology compliance in nations that can be defined more peacefully with a common framework not as tied to moral ideology.  My policies are strengthened by my philosophy that I can by-pass differences of opinion by strategic legislation, using principles of subdividing larger geographic regions into autonomous community units, respecting cultural relativism to reduce legislation placed against the wishes/best interests of the people.

My governance plan includes as a given that citizens will be able to self-represent without the limits of past election systems.  Functionally, I have co-created a sound plan for the use of highly representative technology via computer-kiosk-based voting and a cheap version of “government” that I think would be more reasonably defined as “policy administrators” with qualifications as experts in educating and organizing people to make informed decisions and implementing policy that is codified by popular vote at agreed-upon thresholds.  An ideal role of government is as advocates for the people to mediate decisions and operations by public & private industries cooperating towards [otherwise collective] planetary resources traded for commerce and reward.

A remaining difficult part of the revolution seems to be that it upsets people that have been conditioned into fearing change, even though the level of understanding about the self-evident truths and the merry feasibility of my ideas is high.  I have been learning a lot in this third part of “258”, on the exact nature of business (and interpersonal bad decisions that I like to attribute to defense mechanisms instead of labeling as untreatable behavior) and life beyond the Height of Civilization.

Then, there is the inflated sway of “political control” and the ego of making history that have been obstacles (…in the past, please?).  If reform were even possible, I would consider it on the level of stabilizing and creating harmony.  That has been the argument against Anarchy.  Because of the evolving state of affairs between the multicultural citizens of the world and the institutionalized racism, we are achieving critical mass for change as necessary because the existing status quo is highly unstable.  Like all of my biological esoterica that helps guide my humans-in-a-living-terrarium policy towards sustainability, I keep in mind that stability is a very important factor for survival of biological and psycho-social creatures. 

I imagine the stability in our environment to a chemistry problem where people might be molecules of reactants  and the more stable product intuitively has a lower energy of activation and so more reactants form the stable molecule.  When the molecules are in a higher reactive state, there is less tendency towards stable molecule formation because of the formation of molecules that would otherwise not form.  I also thought of it like the Ideal Gas Law: PV=nRT, where Pressure is emotional pressure, Volume is psychosocial space requirements, n is population, R= human nature/conditioning, T= emotional climate.

I have struggled with people over the moral imperative to speak out about the present rate of “bodies-per-minute”.  I think that life is a nearly-universal value and bullying for supposed genetic purity has been misguided if not wholly criminal.  Much of the destruction of valuable life has been based on bad policy coming out of the USA/Israel.  I have martyr’d my family on how bad this situation is and I only pray “WHEN do they learn?” because I all-but-collapse on the mental-soul incompatibility of people fighting to be racist and choosing “not to learn” as a personal motto.  I could describe almost any block considerations as self-evidently petty, if not ridiculous in the face of species-ism and THE [multidimensional nature of] SIMS.

Even within the USA, under the population management policies in place (that were halted on higher levels on 8Sept2011) we suffer disabilities-per-minute resulting from oppression (MH), exploitation (Banks/Wall Street), lack of social supports (GOP & Psychiatric “WHAT“) and other overcome-able issues like the debt crisis, government stand-still and ravaging of the environment leading to fundamental habitat destruction.  So, I have also challenged people that otherwise subscribed to the resource sequestration from other nationalities on the point that they are all part of humanity that proves why it would be population-reduced on interpersonal misbehavior.

Why I haven't grabbed the "mic" yet.

I have been semi-silently using the “Occupy Wall Street” movement, but haven’t tried organizing more, myself yet.  I had to have my Assemblage Point catch up (for Shamans) to my new location on Earth.  3000 miles is a long way for a soul to reorient in time and space.  I love seeing what everyone else is doing, recognizing how many geniuses are contributing to the ether network of thoughts that I use for policy work.  It feels so good when the Real Archetype of the Pyramid of Life lights-up when people are in harmony.

Otherwise, in community-based legislature (as I endorse), there is a time and place for tabling petitions and getting in the center of the crowd with a microphone.  In our modern revolution, it isn’t just about demonstrating what’s wrong and what we want.  Everyone knows what’s wrong and why different people's hands have been tied even when they have good ideals.  I am working on giving people more freedom to do the good they want to do in policy and business. 

And I showed them the money.  Most just need to remember how by eliminating all the excessive costs of government (not the social programs!  The ARMS, bureaucracy sludge and election campaigns), we could pay for everything that really eliminates crime & builds health (cost saving) and then, a much more reasonable tax structure (15%) would be paid for by the millions & billions spent in trying to loophole around 35%, because we save money by not having to pay congresspeople and other elects to represent people on the (daily?) campaign-finance front.

I have come far on how I use my networks in negotiating with decision makers via the newspapers, BBC and facebook and I am going to continue to reach as many people as possible and push for widespread government and trade reform from international levels.  In the face of the past 42+ years of massive organized demonstrations in the United States, we recognize the decision makers are only partially swayed by reason, logic, or the wishes of the populace. 

For the people that would appear terminally racist (as it sometimes comes down to hearing about skin & hair pigmentation!), I am working on reconstructing the frameworks to guide decision-making towards creating the community-lives that MOST PEOPLE want.  Regardless of history.  History tells us where we're from and warns us where we are headed if we choose to not learn.  If this revolution includes socially isolating some groups because their racism was detrimental to the whole health of the planet, they will just have to understand. 

I think the parallel efforts of all the strong spirits showing up to represent our numbers in all of the Occupytogether.org cities will be very nice in the setting of world-wide revolution with Riots elsewhere.  Let’s show everyone that America is NOT happy with what our decision-makers have done, but remain peaceful so as not to let the cops arrest anyone. 

Eventually, the veils around me will fall, like the Berlin Wall and I will have a public presence to further my agenda for Free-market Economic Non-fiction and Truth-based Goverance.  I won’t waste time trying  to run up against a wall of denial (Washington DC) or worry about the sadness of a reality-hacked world.  I am going to the sources to effect change.

Thank you all!

Wall of Text. Shocking or Otherwise.

All of my recent facebook activity has been my version of round 3 of taking responsibility on the level that people expect from the work I have done for the past three and a half years.  In the past, I was not as experienced with understanding the life circumstances of all the people that I was trying to represent and the outcomes would have been too anarchistic. 

Anarchy has appealed to revolutionists in the past as a response to the pain of oppression, abuse and lack of control over their lives, but most people know that “Riots in the Streets” wouldn’t serve anyone‘s best interests.  We are in an era of surviving a multifaceted emotional and somewhat physical/financial apocalypse, most visibly represented by 9/11 and furthered by the 2008 market collapse like a detonation based on expiration dates of the poor financial products.  Others know the story much better than I.. 

Now, as I am getting better about how to use my gifts of communication and psychic work to bring energy and information from Higher Beings to more people, I am practicing my policy work again.  Instead of blowing systems up, now I am working on the answers  to aligning people towards providing for the people they serve. 

Currency is how we show value to each other, on various levels and determine who owns and deserves what for their efforts.  It has been convenient to use money as currency but it is not the only one.  One of the fundamental answers to “the Meaning of Life” is to contribute as much as one expects to consume.  It sounds basic, but if one thinks about that which makes life less than perfect is the emotional issues of imbalance in how much energy (of a good or bad quality) is exchanged. 

People like feeling appreciated for what they do and when people expect more than they have earned, it is sometimes irritating for the people perceivably working harder.  I have been criticized for my methods of promoting more social education to stabilize our communities to make them more fertile for business to grow and provide jobs to people willing to earn their keep.  It has been difficult to explain exactly how bad I have been suppressed over my reproductive choices in terms of why I haven’t worked a regular job for some time. 

Without being preachy, I have found a lot of truth on how to live-well in biblical sources that sound like ‘traditional values’ that embarrass me when I’m in my more progressive and liberal communities.  Fortunately, it is entertaining as I intellectually dissect some questions, like why a dowry/engagement token before giving up one’s reproduction to prove that someone is a responsible father.  I hope everyone is coming to better understanding of the truth contained within all the books throughout history with a futuristic perspective on what was written to suit a given human dealing with real estate and human labor at the time that a prophet was writing words from Beings above that were aligned with “God” energy.  That is a central theme of my belief system.  I will be working with others on better translating my spiritual words into a wider-audience version..

So, on the work front, I sometimes sound conservative when I say that it is reasonable to expect people to work in some way, in exchange for the community supporting them.  In America, we have had access to smooth roads, unbelievable technology, government-sponsored business investments in the form of infrastructure jobs, public transit, electricity, food, shelter and safety on very comfortable levels.  In energy balance terms, it makes sense to pay for these things according to the level that individuals value them.  When people have expressed lack of gratitude for the hard work of Policists, like myself, risking so much for the benefit of others, that it has been frustrating, much like a parent that tries to provide for less-than-grateful children.  We live in a biological world with real resources, not just electronic money. 

Asking for some taxes to pay for living in a civilized society, so comfortably, is reasonable.  Having a more representative tax system without all the ball-busting will eliminate so many barriers to a smooth functioning society and by extension, world, much as the new consciousness has all but eliminated the deleterious effect of campaign contributions. And the estimated needs-based tax is around 10-15%, if we eliminate the overhead of Arms Industries.

It isn’t so bad to say that people have the choice to live how they want, but must expect compensation equal to how much ambition and effort they show.  Trying to “get away with” more than one earns in any energy exchange is implying that the other person’s effort was less valuable.  Whether that translates into a quick buck with terrible karma or otherwise is each person’s prerogative.  Psychological research  has shown that happiness isn’t tied to ‘money’ beyond that which a person “needs”.  After the basic needs are met, people need to spend their time on meaningful activities that make life worth living. 

My point is that Work, ethics, morals and taxes don't have to be dirty words.  Everyone benefits from integrating the truth from all sides rather than dividing around party lines defined by distorted belief systems and special interests.

We know that we have the emotional capacity, instant communications, mental energy to wisely use technology to streamline various systems and use the previously wasted time & money on projects that serve more people, thereby preventing crime instead of just punishing it, making everyone safer instead of psychologically paralyzing them into staying quiet, as seems to have been part of the mental health treatment models of the past.

Rather than tell people the badness of [PAST] populace management theories and practices were only in their heads, I think that we can continue empowering people with good understandings of the nature of reality and trust that their intrinsic human values of how they want to live, having family and community relationships that feel good, while I am working on eliminating the remnants of a system that reset on 9/8/2011 . 

Respecting others as they wish to be respected on the “in our heads” level as well as “in real life” will help a lot.  Just because it happens to be the golden rule and some corrupt individuals also talk about the Golden rule doesn’t make it less true, I would say to reach out to the people like myself that rejected the religions offered in favor of finding the truth.  Instead of trying to win “Fight Club” and insult each other by pretending that people don‘t hear everything, I think we should all just start behaving like the person-soul we want to be on Earth and be like Simba and Rafiki about the past. 

The government won’t be able to mandate perfect behavior, obviously.  But social mores are changing, as with any influence so that people won’t want to be bad guys with their x-men gifts.  As apologies take on meaning to no longer do harm, we will see reform in business.
 
“By all means,” the collective offers people arguing against me, “if you would like to threaten someone’s child over a business deal, let us all know that you aren’t otherwise capable of intellectual negotiations and we shall eliminate you from such levels of responsibility in your organization/company.”

I think this level of education will create harmony.  Harmony is always my primary motivation as it seems to be the opposite of anxiety, which has been an epidemic ready for treatment on that level, for a while.  I have used my trainings in medicine, education and an interesting path in Shamanism to create a more meaningful career that has included aspirations as a policy writer, demonstrations in human rights around government operations, the excessive use of military over more progressive available negotiating options.  Threads of freewill and justice can be found in many systems that I feel need reform. 

I have dealt with feminism as a professional mother and as a writer in the entertainment industry.  I have written about bringing better practices to psychiatry, raising children and the criminal justice system by recognizing non-ordinary levels of consciousness and communication instead of pretending that the issues affecting millions, if not billions of people are otherwise.  All the costs of these poorly managed areas of civilization bring down our whole.

My other big demonstrations started in January of 2008, shortly after CIA found me as the person with the soul they knew rolled-in right after the 1976 election.  "I'm gonna blow you up, WHO!", is what I finally remembered saying just prior to diving-in on January 6, 1977, thus why my birthday wasn‘t prophesy in a hokey magic sense, people knew exactly when I rolled-in.  I didn't know that until just recently (end of August 2011), which is exciting, for my own personal development quest.  I have done other rebirthing meditations towards remembering my thoughts and motivations for choosing to roll-in as a human. 

The effect of trying to save the world, as others know is that the people seemingly against it try to suppress.  I seemingly got hit with a ton of life circumstances that I karmically understand as necessary to train on the level I needed to avoid being kept down as other activists like me.  Some people know that “They” tried to keep me down hard.  Is there an illuminati card "Herod" that was played on my mom because of the threat of knowledge on the systems?  I bet I can trump it with all the cards that people stacked in my deck from the first day.

Since we all need it, I want to be that Someone strong enough to turn the (unfortunately, already partially sinking) ship safely aground instead of sinking, our efforts at preventing a full-blown impact with an Iceberg isn’t prevented, in terms of the Economy.  At the rate of change in the markets that we’re seeing, we can no longer be in denial about the all the data that some call prophesy.  We can't pretend that the practices of the oil and military industries were okay, as it is well-known the level of unethical efforts used to secure profits.  Yes, we all like fuel and energy.  We don’t want a mob to run our public utilities.

It was nice to have the boost in technology and soil contracts that we got from business leaders of the past.  We can be grateful that we had a boost in productivity in the industrial age to provide more energy that allowed us to evolve our comfortable civilization to support geniuses who are now developing cleaner energy harnessing devices because of realistic perspectives on resources.  People that are only losing electronic digits in these negotiations on saving the planet really should feel more grateful that they will never experience anything that compromises their quality of life and won‘t be leaving their grandchildren with the consequences of their poor prioritizations because I saved them (us). 

Super Revolution part 3.

Sesame Street is in its 42nd year, starting 9/26/2011 and they’re celebrating us so much on “Good Morning America”, in New York.  Jupiter and I feel really honored.

I recommend people check out the recent postings from facebook.com/scaadium about what has been going on this time I decided not to shut-up.

I have had issues with police that seem to feel entitled, regardless of how their High School Diplomas are viewed in terms of Status and decision-making versus countless Doctors (MD’s & PhD’s), Master’s degree policists, business people and community servers supporting this 'Girl that Organized the Future Utopia'.  I have so much confidence around hearing big people say that all of their deals are based in the new Calynder.

9:08am. Plan:  Shower (so hard with competing needs for writing).
Go public. Today’s anticipated weather in Sacramento: 96 degrees Fahrenheit, cloudless and wind-less.

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I have been taking a more solid approach to the UN and WHO than I have in the past.  It is a shift from previous apathy or helplessness.  I have been reminding my colleagues that despite my cannabis use, everyone in any position of authority has been convinced by my policy work and clear command of medical knowledge, at some point or another.  So, I have been working on my patience and dealing with the issues around expecting resignations of people that would seem to endorse anything other than REAL world HEALTH.

My official answer to: “what changed?” is that I decided that I couldn’t bring a child into this world because it wasn’t even safe for myself or existing children, so I got more active in my physical plane life and started considering offers for how to apply my value.

The entity, D, got involved on 8/8/2011 with the Stock market crash.  Then, proceeded with the 5.8 Earthquake that cracked the Washington Monument, later in August.  The entity, I AM, started Hurricane Irene to show people how serious he is about my purpose and deserved reverence as his primary voice.  Then, Bloomberg asked if I would run for VP with him and I said “yes,” at the chance to be elected by the people (so they would shut up about unaccounted “advising”) and the chance to educate everyone about the best policies for humanity and our Habitat.  But that has been just talk among other offers, which is why it hasn't been announced.

I sound a little cocky on the election divination, but I am really humble on the soul-to-soul level.  I back up my elect-ability by saying, “I only want people to vote for me if they are voting on policy (so I don’t waste time discussing my medical and lifestyle issues separately from my policy work) and I can debate anyone that thinks they are as qualified for the position/s that suit me best.” 

I have also offered to the voters, when feeling in a more pleasant mood:  “I think when people are given all the answers (as I have been so exceedingly generous about publishing for free), they will be so empowered that they wouldn’t vote for anyone offering less than I do.”  Then I laugh about how it's a lazy strategy to empower the people into leading themselves so I don't have to work as hard.

One day, in my truth-hurts sessions, I realized that no one else could lead people as a “[vice-]president” as well as I can, which kinda dents my family life, but I have to create a world that is safe for family first, regardless of how old I am or whichever requirements I didn’t satisfy for some criteria.  I'm as shocked as anyone that I have to take a position of leadership like this at such a young age.  I abhor the corruption I have seen overtake "powerful" people so I have enforced my position with numerous checks and balances, also strategic for creating lasting policy instead of being as short-sighted as some would-be leaders.    

Along the course of working out everything with the illogic of past populace management techniques, I finally got on a level of respect with “the Operator” on 8Sept2011, and have had his help in creating the Utopia that most humans want.  It has been exciting as the increased psychic development has its own rewards.  I have had more opportunities to remember my pre-birth existence and i learned that my last words before 4:01am Mountain Time on 1.6.77 were, “I’m gonna blow you up, WHO!” because I didn’t like what “what” did to people and I was sympathetic and hopeful about humans.  The words played back from the files in my own voice (courtesy of Beings in the WHO in the sky) were really convincing. 

So, over the course of some amount of time over the past several weeks of Suzanne's Revolution round 3, the Beings and different humans on Earth have talked about the best use of my ability to mediate between everyone with a decision-making role would be best executed in a directorship position either at the UN or WHO.  Given my MD and the latter level of influence on the Operator and Public-Recognition levels, we chose to represent the latter and I felt confirmation from enough people about this decision, because they do listen and carry out orders from the exact same Beings, verified by many, that I put it on Facebook that I work there. 

Because of the recognized block situation, as 3 years, 8 months of multiple forces acting against me, have been as clear as crystal, internationally, the global community has been taking action on International War Crimes.  We’re calling the last few years another War that needs to be solved by a TREATY.  Netanyahu seems to be getting really reasonable about Economic & Multi-Ethnic Non-fiction (we have access to genetic code that he doesn't understand as a non-biologist and the "forced Animal Husbandry days" are over per a T-shirt idea I posted a few weeks ago!).  Or he’s out, according to what I hear.

It really is a matter of where I want to work, as I have so many sources of assets, tons of popular support, based on the education and activism work I have done against populace management (food supply, psychiatry, economics, arms, penal system) that I have more soul-energy to negotiate in politics than anyone I have come across on the Washington DC level.  I have also proven myself so incorruptible and driven by ideals.  Everyone following my life has watched me decline riches and power continuously, to the detriment of personal attachments and comfort in favor of spiritual enlightenment, advocating for human rights, freewill, soul-love and racial equality.

Finally, after enough “training” in higher worlds, I decided that I can work full-time for a while (a few years).  I have been making the case that using cannabis has been necessary for this level of understanding of reality and is imperative to my purpose in “saving the planet” on the level of negotiating with higher Beings that do effect reality.  I am also functioning better now that I have a regulated, legal marijuana supply instead of relying on a totally variable criminal-market.

To explain how I plan to transition from "under wraps" to full-time work is easy enough.  The difficulties in the numerous areas of my life (with liability everywhere once we get to Geneva) have limited my previous options for reasonable work, as many people know well.  Marijuana has never been a limiting factor, except as individual employers have chosen their work-force standards.

I have demonstrated my stamina for working when provided with a mission statement with which I agree and the freedom to do my best work.  Unfortunately, that hasn’t always been the case at even the most respected organizations.

The cia WASN’T especially excited by my enormous rise upon linking up with Bloomberg (even as they ignored Natural Disasters and Know that I can‘t die on National, if not International Security grounds).  Bomb threats by American government to American citizens were clearly heard everywhere.  After a week and a half of 12-hour days of policy writing and working out Being negotiations and getting more communication going with the higher Operator, we took out the Coordinates rooms for projectiles, world-wide on 9/11, in my time-zone. 

On the morning of 9/12/2011, I woke up to some military dude saying, “What did you do, Suzanne?!” with so much love and respect that I laugh that they get irritated about the power shift, as I know how much they rely on my answers.  There may have been a few weapons-incidents, since then, that got through the filters, but every time I think about it, it only takes a Second to renew the ~SHZZHHh~ on those circuit boards.  Does anyone know how fucking Awesome it is to feel the love and release of anxiety of the WORLD on the level of DISARMING THE CIA!?

Now I laugh, thinking about the future in the works playing “Guillotine” and drinking a Starbucks Chai tea latte with a big anti-hospital-labor sandwich on 7/19/2003.

I am happy that the intellectual work I have been doing around “Economic Non-fiction” has earned physical-plane-based qualifications and industry-backed support from various people including the US Treasury Chairman, numerous Wall Street and Silicon Valley Investors, Higher Justices throughout the USA, including (Unanimous?) support from the Supreme Court.

I apologize for sounding insubordinate to local authorities, but the level of world events with which I am involved is really not anything lower authority levels should interfere with, at all.  It is dangerous to deal with decision-making on these levels.  I am turfing concerns about treason to the federal authorities, as we are trying to figure out where the source of these lethal (and internationally damaging for the USA) blocks are coming from.

I LOVE when Jupiter shows how we are committed to non-violence by holding back from his explosive tendencies, as we finish this revolution.  Our people know that our preference would be to never need to use such methods just because some people refuse to learn.

To finish up for this session, I hope that despite a tiny bit of casualty on the “Exodus level”, the total survivors and quality of life promise to be very positive, especially in the comparison to what everyone knows was the plan.  Integrating the meaning of it all is pretty intense.

Incorporeality has been actively part of my vocabulary for about a Year.

“You would post dialogue between us?” a Being asks, hopefully, flattered that I am considering putting more controversial material out there, as he has followed my demonstrations against the gatekeepers of the consciousness as far as psychiatry interfaces with clairvoyance about the multidimensional nature of reality and the human masses communicating with extra-terrestrial Beings.  There is also the romantic "Penelope" drama going on in my life, for the few years that he's known me and he would love to be the object of that.  that far too many people have taken unhealthy interest in my future partner choice.  Some Beings that I perceive are relatively unknown spirits and others vary from really famous presidents that stuck around as ghosts, as many people in Washington know well, to Beings that are simply known more for their Incorporeal identity and behavior.

The principles behind being honest about my spiritual life are more important than "what" my ex-husband says (eventually a Judge will see the video of Ana~My~Stasia begging to be with mama).  I am trying not to derail and disclose too much publicly, but how many people would like to be on my phone discussing global issues, while the Maybe-Earned-an-AA ex-cable guy Mr. Heinrich-Caadium tries to grasp at straws, pulling stupid tricks to waste my time so he can outwardly look like a decent man for a LITTLE while longer that "our child" feels hurt (is totally neglected by my standards amidst disallowed communication per a temporary restraining order that has nothing to do with my dangerousness to MY CHILD).  Meanwhile, sweet AMC gets to collect the story of "can't wait to go in front of a Judge to get out of my Dad's house" and I'm awaiting counsel from a pro-bono legal group to get my rights back.

It would seem that Incorporeal Beings have been communicating well enough with “psychic”, “clairvoyant”, “sensitive” people for some time, some recorded “biblically” and some edited out.  My biggest impression of the bible is “woah, these prophets didn’t have a clue who they were talking to, most likely”, calling “god” different names all the time.  Yet, to the present day, “Spiritualism” and Psychicism are being suppressed by the Catholic Church and other Interests, enforced by “Psychiatry”, a pawn-able system which seemingly has the legal and police-backed (and pharmaco-) “ability” to restrain a person’s civil, if not human rights. 

Since 2007, I have explored and demonstrated many ways in which people with clear understandings of reality are managed if they don’t follow “the rules”.  The Church and other organizations invested in the Cardinal Criteria (notice that each one could be a [Steve Jackson] Illuminati Card?) stand to lose influence if people become open reality in a way that makes them look inauthentic for dogmatically and abusively running a mafia organization with a holy church front standing for millions of people’s faith in their souls and understandings of existence, which is a lot of ethical responsibility, in my estimation. 

I personally think I need utmost training to feel really good about offering my spiritual services to the world because my work as a Shaman carries so much weight, as I deal with people’s extremely sensitive minds, bodies and souls (ideally, I would also be able to work on people’s community issues, but the third is a chakra level that I haven’t developed as well as others).  So, I get annoyed about organizations: religious, political, educational, legal, etcetera, that have a ton of responsibility to the citizens that define their purpose in the community. 

It’s like some cognitive-behavioral/dialectical issues I’ve been working on: how the ratio of expectation to disappointment is more difficult than the overall score of an experience.  Companies that are straight-up into hustling commodities for profit via goods and services, they have a level of responsibility that doesn’t necessarily include morally serving humanity, so the disappointment is less in some ways. 

I have various ideas about having education through the sixth and seventh (and beyond) chakra levels, but, like student loans, I borrowed some of that socio-economic development and had a variable foundation.  Having subsidies on life has been problematic.  My true lack of proper upbringing has been holding me back psycho-socially from my intellectual and spiritual capabilities.  Hopefully, all these frickin’ “rotations” get all my psychological crap out of the way so I function better soon.

There has also been the moral & economic issues of charging money for healing and being supported by enough people willing to pay for spiritual healing when the community is only functioning on the 3rdchakra, on average, with everything from not even functioning on a basic needs chakra one level, as many of my institutional peers over the past year and a half, to people that commune with the divine, have amazing relationships and create art = chakra 7.  Ironically, it’s probably the poor hippies and street kids that understand the value of the soul work that I do, versus the wealthy, who are typically skeptical and conservative.  Not exclusively, obviously, we know that if I got office space in Santa Monica, I would have a full schedule, but the Bay Area hasn’t been as awesome for me.

Totally interestingly, the housing market crash in Sacramento has 3 bedroom condos selling for $30K, which is like lunch money on a mortgage calculator.  It could be an interesting place to eventually finally circle back to after Probation is over.  Sac technically has everything: arts, music, outdoors, family life, watersports (the number one reason cited by the UC Davis Program Director in 2006 when I interviewed), politics, farmable soil, good groceries, nice local coffee.  The weather isn’t awesome, but there are nicer tree-filled parts of town, as we know.  And it is fairly fertile for holistic healing, as the center of the Waldorf Universe on the West Coast.  I feel like I finally turned a point in planning for the future.  5 years after graduation, I have a lot of stories, experiences and reverence but less assets than expected.

4 years ago today, I left UCLA on the esoterically famous date 7.7.7 around some hyper-religiosity tangentially connected to my wedding anniversary

66% battery power remaining. Internet connection variable, as I try to post thoughts about the Tupac documentary I just watched: “Thug Angel“. After living my “258”/“Isis” life, getting involved ideologically, politically or economically with various “Powers that Be” (A group of "Elite" business-men known as the 'people' that control interest in the consciousness and operation of Earth, mostly oriented toward positive philosophic advancement of humans, but also includes some selfish racist bastards), it seems so clear how “the Powers” were trying to shut him down and how hard he fought around freedom of speech.

I think the story follows that he was also too important to let him actually “die“, per the future-oriented side of each of the “eyez” = Intel, Illuminati, Israel (not like anyone we know that lives like "Pi the movie", right?) that would want to keep him tucked away in case they needed a brilliant black militant revolutionist to sway the popular opinion or provide insight, so he had a staged death so that his influence on the consciousness was halted or at least slowed down a bit. Sneaking out several post-humous albums has not been ideal, per the more conservative folks at WHO, but they Deal with it to avoid Riots In The Streets. I noticed the drops in the video on “WHO Did What?” to Tupac at various points, which obviously includes the fiasco around the sexual assault charge. Lord knows how hard they, who are called “They”, have hit me for not playing along so well, along Industry Standards.

I have had the privilege to give my psychosocial history to various practitioners at Catholic Charities and have had the interesting impulse to be really honest, kinda “for the record” style. I am unfortunately way too psychologically processed and my vocabulary is huge, so I sometimes talk circles around people in a way that doesn’t serve me, for ultimately wanting to improve communication, not create new barriers, and this new therapist has a great way of bringing insight into the room, helping me to realize how all of my intense self-study has alienated me from people. I had the goal in life to learn as much as possible and, as I revealed today, I have a gluttony for knowledge and over-prioritize it much of the time. I learned to read by 2 and a half years because I must have rolled-in knowing how to get knowledge.

Amidst the hyper verbalism in the therapy session, I noted my analysis of my traits and various perspectives of my thought process and difficulty integrating into society as possibly more Axis 2, in the psychiatric diagnostic system, along the Asperger’s spectrum (which in soul-terms, I think means that my consciousness originated on some plane, common to others with “spectrum disorders” that feel out of place on Earth, and we were recruited for filling soul-body positions on this physical plane). I do have my problems integrating to this reality, I note more honestly than in the past.

Oh, Insight!

A New Academic Year

New title: "Don't Google "Populace Management" or your computer will crash"

Original title: "Like Pigs for the Slaughter?" is one of two articles featured in the Portland Oregon State Hospital (POSH) Patient Newsletter, written while I was a psychiatric patient in the Spring of 2011. As I have written elsewhere, I'm not embarrassed to admit that I was locked up by the 'Powers that Be', more or less for being a Revolutionist. I'm more embarrassed for the doctors and other practitioners writing prescriptions as dictated by agencies and entities unknown, following criteria that were collected and designated "diagnoses" by god-knows-WHO. Certainly I am embarrassed for the people that want me to think I was hallucinating my life experiences for the past 4 years because they be incriminated as f*^$. Instead, I continue to risk freedom of movement against "bizarre delusions" and the state's right to lock me up for not behaving.

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“Everyone gains weight here,” a Mental Health Technician (MHT) told me, upon my second weigh-in at POSH (the acronym is quite ironic for a mental hospital). During my Psychiatry training, one of my mentors from Stanford told me that “all psych drugs cause weight gain.” Most of them also cause high cholesterol and diabetes. Theoretically, the benefit in controlling symptoms outweighs these “side effects” that are criminally minimized during most "Informed Consent" disclosures by prescribers.

In 2009, I worked for Central City Concern’s Old Town Clinic, through a program sponsored by a health insurance company to help control costs by coordinating preventative health care. In my training materials that described the program, I read that we were dealing with population-level health management. Between the lines, it appeared to read, “Populace Management.” This seemed especially suspicious to me, as the company is a Medicare and Medicaid third-party payer funding care for the indigent who do not contribute to society in traditional employment terms – who rely upon government assistance for everything from food and housing to very expensive medications. I was initially impressed with Oregon for taking care of its needy people. After some time observing clinic operations, I became suspicious about what “Populace Management” really meant and wondered, "what is the benefit of keeping all of these people on meds?"

Sometimes, when I drink coffee, I think about the resources involved in getting the tasty beverage into the toilet, with my body as the “middle man.” I get a small caffeine-buzz and sensory pleasure from the warm creamy beverage by working my kidneys, which seems reasonable in the moment and the overall economic exchange benefits others in the commodity market in the line of entrepreneurs and workers between me and the soil. From my expensive medical education, I learned that very few medications actually extend life span and the cost:benefit ratio of dollars and side effects to symptom control is questionable, as many drugs are barely more effective than placebo (the power of belief of treatment). So, are we just churning chemicals and scientific education into dollars, using human bodies, as the coffee industry turns sun, soil and water into urine, ultimately?

If tobacco cigarettes were eliminated, the cost to Medicare of the extra years of life span would be $283 billion, according to an article by the Associated Press published in January 2011. The issues of over-population versus the Earth’s resources have been discussed for decades. Would it really be shocking to find that there are interests operating in the world to limit human life spans?

As an idealistic person who originally set out in life to be a healer, I was shocked to learn all these things. In a purely logical frame of mind, I understand the resources issues and need for public safety in controlling violent behavior, but I also feel angry and sad that people are unknowingly fed food and medications that ultimately shorten their life spans when they have placed their trust in the ethics of the health care system and government organizations that control the food supply and pharmaceuticals.

In psychiatric institutions throughout the country (I hear it isn't the same globally as in the US) many people are forced to take medications that cause terrible life-shortening disease (diabetes) or irreversible neurological disease (tardive dyskinesia) and have only questionable benefit towards behavior/mood management. A huge percentage of people are still “hallucinating” on all of these “antipsychotic” medications because the psychic phenomena they perceive are not just electrochemical malfunctions in the brain. My first article deals with some of my ideas about the consciousness spectrum and psychotic disorders. I will see about getting it available, as I only have the printed article.

I think most "patients" that get “better” and are allowed to discharge from the hospital have just learned that "the first rule of Fight Club is you don’t talk about Fight Club." NASA, a USA government organization, had sufficient evidence of telepathy going back to 1963 that they poured millions of dollars into researching the galactic-potential of such communication abilities. But the people behind "Cardinal Criteria" in the Diagnostic manual for psychiatry (Populace management) have listed "telepathy" as a buzz-word for a "bizarre delusion" as defines “schizophrenia” because with the ability to restrict people's basic freewill to speak or move with the tools of mechanical and chemical restraint used everyday in psych-wards throughout the country, anyone can be locked-up if they are psychically connected and don’t behave.

I have "heard" or otherwise perceived many things, psychically (as featured all over the internet). Some things I experience through other senses gets confirmed as Chrystally clear as I can imagine physical manifestation of telepathic communication to be. At other times, events seem to rearrange on the linear timeline, as fits my understanding of the multidimensional nature of reality and fluid timeline. But these concepts apparently haven't been espoused by enough people in our culture to be accepted as not-psychotic.

I wonder at what point all the conscious people will stop acting like they're crazy and we have a seamless society at last, because I think that with radical honesty, as comes with telepathic connections, people will evolve and be better souls in community and existence will be better than the manipulations currently going on around the psychic-sphere being variably controlled and not justly.

I have heard that if I would just shut up and stop talking about the controversial points I make in random conversations about the military and media and pharmaceutical industries and WHOever, I would be rewarded with fame and fortune. I would get to join the section of society that decided to just live and be happy with the experiences they get to have for not rocking the boat, but I don't seem to be too good at keeping my thoughts to myself.

FOR THE INTERNET

All-caps shouting to make sure I remember to write an update that sounds neutral enough to remain out of custody or institutional confinement.
In going over my history of the past 5 years, (which is when I departed my course of “normal”) where I seem to stumble on my psychosis / "difficulty integrating reality" front is around my family and whether or not there were astral beatings of my child or real beatings that were wizarded away on the linear timeline, like a Whole Helluva lot of people support me on, but is still criteria-sounding to lump it together with all the other bizarreness of my life. I mostly just don't go there.

The controversy started in June 2007, when I was set-up for “initiation” along my shaman path that I had been studying peripherally for about 8 years before that. I had my Venice-Beach UCLA experience, didn’t integrate reality as well as hoped-for and I had to retreat to the forest for a few months, then it re-started in December 2007, when I seemingly was *discovered* along psychic circuits/astral planes. Globally, telepathy is a viable method of communication that I understand to be commonly experienced by many people that I’ve encountered face-to-face and remotely, in my years of clairvoyant experience. There are libraries of documentation about other people‘s psychic experiences throughout history, but this subject has a vortex of controversy around its reliability~experts will say that telepathy absolutely exists but it doesn't meet full expectations. Somewhere along the line, "believing in psychic phenomena," became a criterion in someone's toolbox for behavior control by psychiatrically labelling and treating anyone speaking about psychic phenomena that others wanted suppressed.

My psychic gifts and impressive education earned me a lot of attention in January 2008, as I had been primed for, when I lived in Los Angeles the previous Summer, meeting Hollywood people, talking about making my life story into a movie. At that point, I had crashed at the live-in care giving job I had because astral-planing all day wasn’t conducive to work and Hollywood seemed like a better investment of my time, so I was staying at my mom‘s house, expecting to be picked up, as I heard is how Starlets are discovered.

A few weeks of getting around the Hollywood scene, talking about opportunities for my writing and healing gifts and such, eventually, word escalated to election matters and “the truth” seemed a dangerous and powerful tool. In my head/sphere, I heard people of the Democratic party ask if voters were more likely to choose Barack or Hillary. I answered, with my seemingly unique and attention-worthy ability to sift through the consciousness and pool everything I know and answer questions with a high amount of clarity. So, Intelligence dropped a scenario at my mom’s house, causing me to leave in a huff and sleep in my car and head to a friend’s house where I could be apprised of the situation in politics.

My family situation was already tense, as my older daughter, then 15, was kinda doing the Cinderella thing, step-mothering my younger, then 4 year-old. When the “welcome to the real-world, Neo” bomb got dropped on me in November/December, before I got into the public spotlight, I was kinda Divinely told that I would lose my child and, given that, how should she go that would be most painless. Less creative and determined as I later demonstrated, I gave them an answer: car accident.

When my family heard me answer this question, from “the powers that be” that were on me early, I suppose, they all freaked out. That was Christmas 2007. That incubated for about a month and then, my family seemed to go insanely violent, according to clairvoyant material I was picking up, in January of 2008. I have tried so hard to manage an impossible family disaster that might have been, and in retrospect totally looks like, a government hijack to force me into homelessness and “criteria” so that if I didn’t stand up to initiation on Washington levels, they would have a thumb over me (I’m hearing in plane English, now, to my chagrin, though I sorta had put that together before).

My psychic gifts were valuable, politically, but I was very unpredictable. When everyone was asking questions, psychically, regardless of the source, (which can be very difficult to ascertain in the midst of dozens and thousands of astral bodies and ethereal thoughts flying by) if I could answer, I would. I loved it and leaked all kinds of data that the powers that be would rather not be out there. See my “258” material somewhere on the web, hopefully, for more info on that time in my life. The story of the 3 "psychiatric" years since then have been a tug of war between my freewill and their interests to get me to use my gifts for them. I also have this not-self sense of dutifully speaking for the people that are on the opposite side of their missions, as I have such channeling abilities sometimes.

In playing War Games in February of 2008, I admit that I got totally carried away in my then-new access to vocal power that I got from all the questions answered, proving some divinity that was being proposed from the big religious people into numbers and other prophetic shit. (And leave the “hyper-religiosity” criteria at the door. If this weren’t an issue in my life, I wouldn’t be in all of these cosmically tremendous boats that rock religious and political people near and far.

I posted a CV/resume supplement to facebook, recently, that chronicles all the little projects I have been working on, vocationally since 2006, most of which got lumped under “consulting” for scaadium.com. I’m impressed by myself. I actually had very little unemployed time. I got back on the horse immediately every time and have a million and a half words to show for all the time in between earning dollars that I was storing up words for dollars later. Some periods were distinct as “working on film” or “political demonstration” or both. I’m a workaholic, whatever my credit and bank balance. I have a chip on my shoulder about how my family members have derided me on not earning money, but have watched the impossible philosophy and shamanism to come out of what I have trained for. Unfortunately, some of the time is also written-off to “institutional and correction time for political demonstrations“. What’s the dollar-per-word value of the penciled sheets of Journal on the backs of inmate request forms and yellow pads from December 2009 to February 2010 that led me completely off my rocker in mid-February, just as I landed the Portland Community College job that delayed an assault charge?

Yes, a frickin’ assault charge. Either I have diagnosable SSI-able psychotic spectrum disorder NOS and hallucinated that my ex-husband abused my children to the fullest extent and I had to save them to the best of my ability, after calls to police and child protective services were unsatisfactory, or I am living through tremendous, maddening injustice. Did someone just make me believe that he did unfathomable things to them, as demons do to schizophrenics and psychologic operations agents do to 'government shut-downs'? At any rate, I am no longer a danger to the man I married in 2002, but that has been part of the history that people should know, I suppose. I am compartmentalizing everything I know into “the part my life that has been validated to be consistent from the psychic realm, seamlessly to the physical plane” (which must not pose an apparent threat to National Security or the future of someone else‘s choosing) and the rest of reality, as “the parts of my life that are too controversial to allow people to speak about them”.

To cope, I think about the Serenity Prayer a fair amount: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage (strength) to change the things I can and [I especially reinforce the part about] the Wisdom to know the difference between that which I can and cannot change, while sucking shit on not seeing my child for almost two years because she was fathered by a man who either did impossibly terrible things of his own freewill or because I got into levels of politics that endangered her to the level of her father being pawn-able (people channeling into his body to cause him to beat my child) or both and I have to just pretend that I was delusional or something, because that is the only way I have a future of seeing my daughter and not dying of helplessness? It’s disturbing how dissociated I have to be to even partially integrate into this reality that is diagnosing me as psychotic and letting him go about his business. I like to think that I’m working towards “the hope of a future of our own choosing”, per the daily affirmation pledge that we read at the Portland Oregon State Hospital community meeting. The actual future might be too much to ask for, but we all deserve the hope of the future of our choosing.

So, the update for how I am: I bike around a little every day, but have been generally slacking in my exercise routine. I eat really well, after eating hospital food for 4 months. Being institutionalized to a degree, sucks. I laugh at the low level of activity I got used to. Knowing myself, I imagine a flurry of goal-directed activity happening soon enough. But for the moment, I have probation and other things holding me back from ambitious career-level work. In the meantime, I’m trying to manage the fall out of not shutting up and not following the rules on the Bilderberg level, how it feels for my family that I have been suicidal, coping with the lost time of Oregon’s law on “right to die” applying only to certain illnesses and learning the 180 day hard-way not to try to die. It was a longer ‘sentence’ than my stolen limousine charge got me!

I appreciate the love and support that I have gotten from people. I wish I had more energy to be more of a presence as a friend to people. I have analyzed my flaws. I spread myself exceedingly thin, trying to accomplish everything. Each of the million items in my life gets too little attention.

Depends on what the definition of crazy IS

I heard that when Bill Clinton was testifying about the Monica Lewinsky ordeal, he said at some point, "It depends on what the meaning of is, is," with reference to my favorite political power. I have been writing without posting because I have been dealing with a bunch of psychiatric bullshit for the last 6 months and a print-out of this blog was the first thing everyone saw in my chart. Because like so many other people that meet government-dictated psychiatric criteria for psychosis, I write about other planes, aliens, telepathy, clairvoyance and reality hacking. But unlike most people I know who also endorse such beliefs, I ended up on psychiatric radar for trying to leave my human body.

I thought Oregon was the progressive "Right to Die" state, which was part of my choice to stage my hospice vacation and death there, in October 2010. Various things went wrong in my plan (or right in the view of the current status of respiring as a physical plane Being) and I was eventually locked up against my will and medicated according to the standard of care for people that speak about psychic phenomena: high-dose atypical anti-psychotic pharmacotherapy. Of course, that's the standard treatment for visiting a psychiatrist at all, I think, given that those medications are FDA approved for everything from depression and anxiety to channeling demons, regardless of the side-effect: benefit ratio.

I wrote a couple of aggravated articles in the newspaper of the Portland Oregon State Hospital (POSH) about populace management, pharmacolonization and the situation of trying to control human behavior according to ideas of true reality sponsored by WHO? I'm not embarrassed to have been a patient in a Psychiatric State Hospital. I was embarrassed for the physicians/psychiatrists acting like I had a psychotic disorder and forcing me to risk enormous health side-effects from medications because I spoke about telepathy, like countless millions of people the fact of which is a huge share of Barnes & Noble's livelihood. If I had published before trying to kill myself, I would be taken more seriously, right? So, I have spent a fair amount of energy over the past few months verbalizing against this system that I once trained in, but left because I had a sense of higher purpose than prescribing medications to treat people's soul and life-circumstance problems.

I "hear" telepathically (like so much of my very publically known communications are conveyed) that if I would just shut up about the World Health Organization (WHO) and Allied Industries controlling the populace in ways that seem anti-humanistic or unethical, I would get paid like everyone else that knows the truth about the "Zeitgeist" situation, but doesn't let it get to them to the point of wishing to continue existence as an Incorporeal Being without all this human pain. But something in me feels the need to speak about the wrongness in Psychiatry purporting to understand and treat neurochemical problems, as if healing someone, when their clients are either involuntary or have encountered psychiatry because of a poor social and cultural framework for managing emotions and other soul issues.

But as I noted on my CV/resume supplement, this experience was, in many ways, just another rotation in my training: Educational Intensive in Institutional Psychiatry. Because I'll walk around with "Psychosis NOS" scrawled on my face with Sharpie Ink if someone actually can argue against the obviousness of my life path including everything it has around exposing psychiatry. Contrary to some rumors, I wasn't fired from training. I left UCLA in 2007, citing my difficulty with participating in what seemed to me to be human rights violations.

Obviously, I am still pretty irate about being held in institutions with minimal freedom (and variable safety from other patients) on a civil commitment for almost 6 months, by clinicians that were pitiful. I was placed on the discharge planning list when I approached my attending psychiatrist, informing her that the resident in charge of my case hadn't rounded on me in 4 weeks. Like I said, I'm not embarrassed that they pulled a bunch of language out of their butts to make me sound like a psych patient. I would be embarrassed to be them, tailoring language (as I learned in my training) to make someone sound really sick in the beginning, to justify hospitalization and then make them sound really good for discharge, so that the medicolegal bases are covered and in some cases, so that the Insurance Company will pay.

So, the update: I am back in the Bay Area of California, complying with my court probation for the political demonstration in Fall of 2009. I'm also eating a lot, after having almost no choice over my food options for 6 months.