4 years ago today, I left UCLA on the esoterically famous date 7.7.7 around some hyper-religiosity tangentially connected to my wedding anniversary

66% battery power remaining. Internet connection variable, as I try to post thoughts about the Tupac documentary I just watched: “Thug Angel“. After living my “258”/“Isis” life, getting involved ideologically, politically or economically with various “Powers that Be” (A group of "Elite" business-men known as the 'people' that control interest in the consciousness and operation of Earth, mostly oriented toward positive philosophic advancement of humans, but also includes some selfish racist bastards), it seems so clear how “the Powers” were trying to shut him down and how hard he fought around freedom of speech.

I think the story follows that he was also too important to let him actually “die“, per the future-oriented side of each of the “eyez” = Intel, Illuminati, Israel (not like anyone we know that lives like "Pi the movie", right?) that would want to keep him tucked away in case they needed a brilliant black militant revolutionist to sway the popular opinion or provide insight, so he had a staged death so that his influence on the consciousness was halted or at least slowed down a bit. Sneaking out several post-humous albums has not been ideal, per the more conservative folks at WHO, but they Deal with it to avoid Riots In The Streets. I noticed the drops in the video on “WHO Did What?” to Tupac at various points, which obviously includes the fiasco around the sexual assault charge. Lord knows how hard they, who are called “They”, have hit me for not playing along so well, along Industry Standards.

I have had the privilege to give my psychosocial history to various practitioners at Catholic Charities and have had the interesting impulse to be really honest, kinda “for the record” style. I am unfortunately way too psychologically processed and my vocabulary is huge, so I sometimes talk circles around people in a way that doesn’t serve me, for ultimately wanting to improve communication, not create new barriers, and this new therapist has a great way of bringing insight into the room, helping me to realize how all of my intense self-study has alienated me from people. I had the goal in life to learn as much as possible and, as I revealed today, I have a gluttony for knowledge and over-prioritize it much of the time. I learned to read by 2 and a half years because I must have rolled-in knowing how to get knowledge.

Amidst the hyper verbalism in the therapy session, I noted my analysis of my traits and various perspectives of my thought process and difficulty integrating into society as possibly more Axis 2, in the psychiatric diagnostic system, along the Asperger’s spectrum (which in soul-terms, I think means that my consciousness originated on some plane, common to others with “spectrum disorders” that feel out of place on Earth, and we were recruited for filling soul-body positions on this physical plane). I do have my problems integrating to this reality, I note more honestly than in the past.

Oh, Insight!