I'm not dead or in Jail. For those in the know, those 6 words are probably a poignant summary of my recent life. Probably deserves to be said when more than a few weeks pass between posts. And today, I nearly got myself 11/1/2011'd again (lynched on the erased timeline, as Some know well).
They could advertise "free delicious aromas" at this ~Old Soul Co.~ cafe. I love how their kitchen and artisan-scale bakery appliances are in an open-space of dining room under shared bare rafters with rough-mortared brick walls, charming authenticity of huge ventilation ducts over ovens, inside of which an adult Hansel (& Gretel) would fit.
On the food/shelter/safety front, I bought a 1986 fifth-wheel trailer in great shape, fully furnished, docked in a park and even stocked with groceries, linens, and nearly every kitchen appliance I could imagine, as dude selling had to hurriedly leave the state for surgery. Trailer park life is obviously one of the cheaper ways to live, for the moment. I considered interviewing for a roommate deal, but unless I "WHat" (verb known to some) like an asshole that wants to live alone after all real souls discard them, it's not really an option. I'm not happy that my political work-life is a mess, but I treat people honestly and trust that because most people are smart and raised in our time, they understand, even if they don't agree with some of the basic uglies of Revolution. I respect that my edges are uncomfortable as well, as I am still trying to be emotionally responsible as much as I can.
I am really irritable hearing about the allegation that if I would stop smoking pot, I could somehow get my kid back because what? My ex-husband has a choice in the completely legal "Prop. 215" matter? I also hear shit from random stalkers or fans, just because they know me, I have to hear from [sometimes completely uneducated] people about drug-propaganda from the corrupt-as-all-hell DEA, peddled by the criminally violent COPS?! And then the CIA would stop threatening everyone from paying me for by movies and books, RIGHT?!?!?!?
(In mixed tense, with inspiration from a supporter:) DOCTOR CAADIUM is not taking a shit Job or going to dumb probation-groups through hacked mental health court for a political demonstration I completed a sentence for, while they ran me around last time, but when I have been denied usual legal protection, I'm forced to just win the Revolution. ("AUGUST 13 Tabloid!" i need to shout at some in-denial antagonizing mf'ers)
For the people irritating me by wishing a Ouija "no" had more point value (and repeat until they GET IT): I suggest they Tally the score and let us all know if the "Powers that Be" have a projected future win. Otherwise it is very valuable for me to remain "medicated" for my mood and essential communication level of consciousness. Anyone wishing to fight me on credibility and validity is welcome. IT's ugly to fight me. I regret losing friends, but this is the state of global affairs for Singular "1677".
The chin-quiverers will lose. If that makes no sense, don't worry, consider yourself LUCKY! A lot of what I write may sound unusual to people that don't know events going on in real life (NOT on TV) and no one could be on 24/7 for all updates, but what others miss because of natural attention diversions Drives me crazy to hear about. I realize that the psychic card sucks because most people know not to speak their asshole thoughts and I am extremely reactive because of the level of emotionality to my real life that people dismiss to celebrity, as if being widely recognizes makes painful family drama less. So, I often cause trouble for myself, reacting to thoughts and such, shouting about everything. And it does feel lynch-level dangerous sometimes, but they refuse to let me be free because I threaten their agendae, so I have to fight as hard as I can. I don't have a surrender option.
... I am truncating the public post for my safety, as the ranting got worse. Take-home message: IT's NOT "all in our heads", as people mostly know, but deserve confirmation of what's blocked by the media and ops. I should (frickin"!) WRITE like I do in my Journal so people's denial busts about the level of Anti-Citizen actions of our tax-paid agencies and associates. Am I "CAPS'ing" enough to get the message across in text?
They could advertise "free delicious aromas" at this ~Old Soul Co.~ cafe. I love how their kitchen and artisan-scale bakery appliances are in an open-space of dining room under shared bare rafters with rough-mortared brick walls, charming authenticity of huge ventilation ducts over ovens, inside of which an adult Hansel (& Gretel) would fit.
On the food/shelter/safety front, I bought a 1986 fifth-wheel trailer in great shape, fully furnished, docked in a park and even stocked with groceries, linens, and nearly every kitchen appliance I could imagine, as dude selling had to hurriedly leave the state for surgery. Trailer park life is obviously one of the cheaper ways to live, for the moment. I considered interviewing for a roommate deal, but unless I "WHat" (verb known to some) like an asshole that wants to live alone after all real souls discard them, it's not really an option. I'm not happy that my political work-life is a mess, but I treat people honestly and trust that because most people are smart and raised in our time, they understand, even if they don't agree with some of the basic uglies of Revolution. I respect that my edges are uncomfortable as well, as I am still trying to be emotionally responsible as much as I can.
I am really irritable hearing about the allegation that if I would stop smoking pot, I could somehow get my kid back because what? My ex-husband has a choice in the completely legal "Prop. 215" matter? I also hear shit from random stalkers or fans, just because they know me, I have to hear from [sometimes completely uneducated] people about drug-propaganda from the corrupt-as-all-hell DEA, peddled by the criminally violent COPS?! And then the CIA would stop threatening everyone from paying me for by movies and books, RIGHT?!?!?!?
(In mixed tense, with inspiration from a supporter:) DOCTOR CAADIUM is not taking a shit Job or going to dumb probation-groups through hacked mental health court for a political demonstration I completed a sentence for, while they ran me around last time, but when I have been denied usual legal protection, I'm forced to just win the Revolution. ("AUGUST 13 Tabloid!" i need to shout at some in-denial antagonizing mf'ers)
For the people irritating me by wishing a Ouija "no" had more point value (and repeat until they GET IT): I suggest they Tally the score and let us all know if the "Powers that Be" have a projected future win. Otherwise it is very valuable for me to remain "medicated" for my mood and essential communication level of consciousness. Anyone wishing to fight me on credibility and validity is welcome. IT's ugly to fight me. I regret losing friends, but this is the state of global affairs for Singular "1677".
The chin-quiverers will lose. If that makes no sense, don't worry, consider yourself LUCKY! A lot of what I write may sound unusual to people that don't know events going on in real life (NOT on TV) and no one could be on 24/7 for all updates, but what others miss because of natural attention diversions Drives me crazy to hear about. I realize that the psychic card sucks because most people know not to speak their asshole thoughts and I am extremely reactive because of the level of emotionality to my real life that people dismiss to celebrity, as if being widely recognizes makes painful family drama less. So, I often cause trouble for myself, reacting to thoughts and such, shouting about everything. And it does feel lynch-level dangerous sometimes, but they refuse to let me be free because I threaten their agendae, so I have to fight as hard as I can. I don't have a surrender option.
... I am truncating the public post for my safety, as the ranting got worse. Take-home message: IT's NOT "all in our heads", as people mostly know, but deserve confirmation of what's blocked by the media and ops. I should (frickin"!) WRITE
